IM 19 ive been depressed as long as i can remember. but i cant put it down to a reason, no bad childhood, had and have decent friends which i recently started to talk to about this after trying meds and the doctor about a year ago. but still no reason to live. no reason to fight, no Purpose.
It is just so so tiring living so my suicide wont cause others grief, so long ive tried to find a reason to get up the next day. to fight so i wouldnt upset others. but i cant live for others for ever. i just want so badly to die. to end all of this pointless pain and be done with this. i want to rest.
Even if i recover there will allways be the fear and the memory of this the scars the physical and mental ones. i cant bear it, nor do i want to. i hate this life, everything is empty purposeless. we are so insignificant comapred to the world and our world is insignificant compared to the universe. theres nothing i enjoy. theres nothing i aspire to do or become. im just tired…
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i want the same. i am getting tired of staying here.
it is exhausting having to constantly lie to “how are you” and other such questions.
ya i know i am so good at it but its so sad
ive got another appointment with the doctors tomorrow. but i highly doubt ive got the will or strength to fight it again.
ya i know u can
I have everything planned the note the location how to di it. i jst need that bit of will to do it
ya i know i have like half of mine. i am just waiting for the wedding to be over to see if i can
Hey you guys,
I’m really sorry you feel this strongly about your end.
@G, I’m 20, so I’m your age, and I know how bad things can feel, and how the slightest thing can get to you. But if you give life a chance it might surprise you, I know it surprised me.
@Life sucks, I don’t know anything about you really, but I hope you reconsider. Life is precious, every life. You never know what might happen in the future.
So yeah I hope you both reconsider, but if you don’t email me, I’ll make sure I’m available to talk. No one should die alone. And though I’m not religious, or spiritualist in any way, I’ll pray for you.
I’ve been in a position where I’ve wanted to kill myself many times. I’ve lacked the courage to do it. I’ve talked to people who have had the courage to try and have been found. No one I know is sorry that they have had another chance.
I hope you give it another chance too.
I’m here if you need me.
Nick
thanks nick
but i think tonight i am gonna be ok i just tryied to cut and i an i failed
Still, I’m always here.
Always.
ya i am same if u ever need help
i just wish someone would help me cut
I know that you are having a really rough time. But you can find something you want to do or become. It may take some time, but you can find something worth living for.
G…19 is way too young to die. I’m 40 and it’s a world apart full of wisdom and experience you’re shutting yourself out of. You’d be missing out on a lot of fun. I’d talk to a life coach if I were you. Give me my 19 back…let me tell you. We don’t know what we don’t know…time is a gift in this life…what would happen if you accepted the good, the bad, the ugly, and the boring…what would happen? Make a choice in favour of yourself and I guarantee you will see things positively change. If you don’t know where to begin and would like to find out, just ask me. Everyone needs to understand if you do not have just cause for exiting, you will not have a very good transition to the next realm, you will be reprimanded. There are special cases but yours is not one of them my friend. Fight and dig deep. Good luck.
It takes work to dig deep to see what could very well spark your life back to a place where you’re enjoying it. Conjure up the courage to do something different…join a euker club/tournament. Make some simple plans.
Are you sure your childhood was good. People don’t just feel depressed without good cause. When you are brought up with love it sets the stage for good patterns and perspectives in life….I’d revisit that one.
“No one I know is sorry that they have had another chance.”
You do now. Well, you don’t actually know me… but you get the idea.
I should have stayed dead 20 years ago. If I had stayed dead I would be O.K. with not experiencing what I have these last 20 years. I’ve had some good times- but too much pain. I’d sacrifice the good times in order to not experience the continued torment and pain.
I’ve come to realize that life has no purpose or meaning. Our existence was a fluke and we just take up space and cause destruction. Then someday humans will cause their own destruction and human existence will be a short blip on the history of the earth.
@Radar: although it might seem that that last sentence of yours might be a possibility for this wrecked humanity, but to be fair, what gives me somewhat of a hope is that Change is truly inevitable, whether sooner or later.
even when humans will be faced with the worst catastrophe, because just as the great quote from Batman Begins movie: “People often need dramatic examples to shake them out of apathy”, it seems to be the majority of human nature.
It’s just basically like how we humans now learn (the hard way) of ‘bad, evil’ things like Holocaust tragedy,
or from the failed Communism system (& soon Capitalistic system as well, as shown by the global economic crisis consequences),
or from the tsunami & earthquake, and how humans can next time anticipate, and even perhaps find the Cause to prevent it from happening again, etc.
so I do somehow know that just as Change is inevitable, then there’s still Hope.
but if in the end like you said we’re going to be destroyed,..then it seems not a bad idea also.
after all, our foiled human existence might perhaps serve as a “hard lesson” for another alien civilization out there in vast universe (hey, who knows??..even just few centuries ago we still believe that the earth is flat!).