dad – “when are you going back to school?
me – “why do i need to, its a waste of time.”
dad- “you know me and your mom aren’t going to be around forever. what are you going to do when were both gone?”
me- “im going to kill myself cuz you guys are really the only reason why im staying alive.”
dad- “your crazy you know.” (in a joking manner)
me- “you know im being serious right?”
dad- “will you stop talking like that!”
i exit the room. curl up in a ball on my bed and cry. he tries to hide the truth with humor cuz he know’s damn well that i really want to die. so much for daddy’s little girl
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Omg its exactly the same with my parents we’ve had lots of those convos
Parents can be annoying…
My mother does the same thing, back when she used to know how i was feeling. Sometimes I feel like a bad person when I consider only sticking around untill she dies. I love my mother, so I guess I feel guilty, awaiting her death.
Tell me about it. If it weren’t for my parents and sister I really have no meanin to live. They’re the reason why im stil here. Fml
my mum said it will kill her if i went,and she has done a lot for us growing up,but i still think I will go before them.You have to think of yourself sometimes and if you have to go,you have to go.It’s your life and decision
parents and others try to help but only you know your own mind
i told ma mom few days ago that theres no point of me livin ma life n all….n this mornin i was in ma bed cryin …n she came in…n i told her im suicidle n i wanna commite suicide n all….she was beggin me not to do it n all….i told her i might not do it now…but later on i might…idk whats gonna happen…the reason im here is cuz of ma mom n bro…they’ve kept me this strong enough not to do it…but idk how long i can stay strong…ma moms been callin me every 50 mins to see if im ok…i might be ok now…but idk abt later on…
I think you should maybe giving your parents a break. The way he reacted may seem horrible to you, but from me, and outsiders, point of view. He’s a scared parent who doesn’t know what to do.
Put yourself in his shoes. Your beloved daughter is opening talking about killing herself like it’s nothing. How would you feel.
If you stop thinking negativly, it’ll help. Honestly, I did it. I used to always have this voice in the back of my head, saying. “You think you can honestly do that.” “Wow you’re a selfish *****” “God you’re pathetic”. But once I stopped thinking like that, I began to grow stronger.
Just tell yourself you can do it, and you will. 🙂
*an
*openly
*negatively
Dear god, typos, typos, typos.
at least your dad cares. mine doesn’t give a shit about me. only if it involves his money.
Same…ma dad dont care…only cares for the money…
Unfortunately in this hell hole of a world money does matter more than people