okay life story now

Okay whew this should be a book lol

But when I young like for the ages 2 to 9, I was the happiest kid alive. I had grandparents who loved me. I felt liek nothing would ever hurt me. I felt so safe with them. I felt so loved….. But then the day came that hate……I had to move with my mom. I had to leave everything behind. I left the kid me behind…….So I moved with my mother. Then it started happening. first with my sister……she called it the tweety bird game……she would show me how her boyfriends touched her by touching me…….Then my “dad” starting drinking alot…….he started touching me up then beating me…..then he started raping me…..saying I owed him my life….and more…..then my  mom would go binge drinking leaving me with him and my sister…….my mom would dissapear for days and months…….then i told my nextdoor neighbor…..and she called the cops…….when CPS got involved I wanted to go home…so I lied and said it was just a lie……but no one believed me…..so i started running away from group homes and foster homes……my mom told me when i was younger that they were horrible places……i really didnt give them a chance…….but then we ranaway to the rez…where im enrolled member of the Yankton Sioux tribe……so my mom got custody of me and my older brother…..so we have been living here for three years……my mom still binge drinks…….she hits me and calls me down every time shes drunk…….I have a wonderful BF but he is getting tired of my drama….so we broke up…..i’ve attepmted suicide more then i can count……which is alot by the way. My wrists have many scars and my stomache is torn up because of all the pills ive od on…….My mom fucking hates me and wants me to die….my brother doesnt want anything to do with me……i cant handle living this life anymore…..and im ready to take my life but ill wait for someone to walk in my life and make it worth living and worth putting myself though this endless pain……