I don’t know what the hell to do anymore.
Its been awhile since I’ve been on this site and actually write something down concerning my feelings that I lock away.
To start off I’m failing all my classes (apparently) and may have to do summer school, which I never havedone before.
Second off I can’t seem to get anything right anymore. Does anyone ever blank out but its very consistant? I feel like I’m slowly turning into a veggie.
I’ve been feeling under the weather lately so I am missing school, 14 days in English and Math. Math is my worse subject I literally can’t do it and this may sound weird but my head starts to actually hurt when I try.
I do have learning disorders but I don’t think that they’re good enough to be valid excuses.
I never do homework, I don’t know why, I’ve been told by my mom that when I was younger I thought I had some sort of special treatment or something.
I know I sound like a spoiled brat you can call me that if you want, I don’t really give a fuck what other’s think of me.
I’ve been getting involved or rather pulled into numerous and unecessary fights with my friends. All pointless little quarrels in the group.
And then my family…well all my friends love myÂ parents but my parents aren’t the problem. My brother is the one that concerns me the most. He’s autistic and I’m worried about what will happen later in life.
So basically I have a low self-esteem,Â and can’t amount into anything from what I can tell.Â
Now I’m here and at home thinking on whether ending my life is a good idea or not.
So now i’m awaiting a lecture from my parents when they get home :/