Have been depressed for years. Ended up isolating myself from friends. I am now a complete loner that manages to put on that brave face when around other people. Haven’t been with a woman for nearly five years and now everybody around me thinks I am gay. I wouldn’t blame them though. Now I have no courage whatsoever around girls, I never go out because I can longer drink alcohol and look extremely young so girls take no notice of me whatsoever. I have now anxiety problems that can prevent me from leaving the house. Also have been unemployed for a very long time and cannot get a job as my CV has huge gaps in and there are so many people looking for jobs now. On top of that I live in the middle of nowhere so transport is herrendous to the city for getting jobs. My options and time are running out. My best friend has asked me to be the best man at his wedding next year and I don’t think I can make it that long. I reeally have no future at all. I used to hang onto a little ray of hope but that has long gone. I wish I could meet someone in person that goes through this shit btu I can’t.