Have been depressed for years. Ended up isolating myself from friends. I am now a complete loner that manages to put on that brave face when around other people. Haven’t been with a woman for nearly five years and now everybody around me thinks I am gay. I wouldn’t blame them though. Now I have no courage whatsoever around girls, I never go out because I can longer drink alcohol and look extremely young so girls take no notice of me whatsoever. I have now anxiety problems that can prevent me from leaving the house. Also have been unemployed for a very long time and cannot get a job as my CV has huge gaps in and there are so many people looking for jobs now. On top of that I live in the middle of nowhere so transport is herrendous to the city for getting jobs. My options and time are running out. My best friend has asked me to be the best man at his wedding next year and I don’t think I can make it that long. I reeally have no future at all. I used to hang onto a little ray of hope but that has long gone. I wish I could meet someone in person that goes through this shit btu I can’t.
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I’m in the same position mate.No friends,no woman,no Job and no life.
You’d be supprised,there are a few of us about.RU in the UK
Yes, North Yorkshire
Heya! I know exactly how u feel. No matter how hard I try nobody wants to know I am not liked at all. Its like I try to be positive and nice with people and they just hurt me and throw me away like rubbish. I will like 2 talk 2 u online and be your friend as I know the pain ur going thru. I know how much it hurts. I have nobody either. I have tried everythin. If u ever wanna talk email me at vazzie_ere_chillin@hotmail.co.uk or add me on msn if u got it. I’m in West Yorkshire btw. I have attempted suicide 4 times and got hit by a car once and I wish that It kiled me.
im also the same as you…no job, no girl, no friends…yea a few but thy dont realy understand me…all thy know is my mask…so its hard…i live with my parents and thy just wount see my problems…all thy want is to get a job, but i cant even take it…i tryed a job for 3 days and i needed 2 weeks to recover from the stress…i also have gaops in my CV … i live in the netherlands … so it sa bit far but still here we ar all friends
I can relate. I’ve isolated myself as well from the few friends I have. They were all a bunch of let downs.
I’ve got a part time job at the moment only two days but really need a job in the city. I keep getting jobs then quitting straight away due to severe IBS that I have(which is the base of all my problems). Last job I got I took an overdose within a week of getting it.
Each time I talk to people they always ask what I’ve been up to. All I can ever say is ,”Not a lot.”
Cheers for your responses guys.
that job i tried for 3 days was with a hiworker…so suicide problems about 15 meters above the ground are a succes so then just dont doing it when you realy feel like it just is not working…
I can relate also with the part of isolating urself and having no real friends.
Sometimes I wonder, why can’t we find more people who are being honest that they’re in the exactly same position like ours eg: jobless, feeling down, society outcast, etc,..but you almost always can find similar people in online/internet world like this blue website and the posts here for example.
I wonder if yes there ARE truthfully people like us out there now, heck, even perhaps your own friends or neighbors,..but it’s just that perhaps people in Real-life can put their MASK on sooooo well,…that even their responses when asked would be same/similar like you said “oh not much”…whereas in online world since it’s more anonymous, people like us can be much more HONEST, Real, and Open with each other…..which sadly, is what this fucked-up Real-world really need in these times!
No wonder we can feel very ‘lonely’ often in the Real life..!
You make some good points niki, thanks.
I just wish I could meet up with someone and get shit off my chest.
And no, I’m not a frikkin paedophile preying on the weak.
People in real life are so good in putting their mask and hiding their Real self.
No wonder real life/world is always full of BS craps and fakers.
And some (or many?) people perhaps begin to wonder why life suddenly feels so fake, empty, and hollow..
Well, time to wake up people, be honest, embrace yourself & also others.
But alas, we humans are well-known notoriously to be too slow to learn or change,..until usually tragic/dramatic things start to befall upon us, just exactly like what Bruce Wayne said in Batman Begins: “People often need dramatic examples to shake them out of apathy”.
sucks I know…but it seems to be a human nature..
One day I will get out of this mess. I think somebody somewhere else in the universe knows whether I will or not. Wish I could ask them.
sometimes i think thy just dont care…simply put…thare are more then to menny people so what is teh difrence…a 1000 more or less…well sometimes i think likt this and i think im not the only one…
i guess thats why we humans lurn so slow…
Hi there im the same as you, i wish there was someone that care for people like us , but there is not, this world died a long time ago nobody care about nobody and that is really sad 🙁
There are many people who for you.
*care for you*
I can relate to what you wrote so much!!
It would be cool if you joined No Longer Lonely, a dating/friendship site for people with mental health issues. I go to the chat room there. You don’t have to be looking to date anyone to go there. It helps a bit to chat with people that can relate to your situation. I find chatting there enjoyable. U cld make a free profile and check out the site. Maybe there’s someone on that site that you would like to/could meet. I was surprised to find a place where I could be honest about my situation because it wasn’t viewed as unusual there.
@hugobadmf: there are still good people, trust me, but often in these days you have to be more thorough and search more wider, & deeper, to find people like these,
because they’re sadly get ‘drowned’ by capitalistic, materialistic, consummerism and superficial ‘evil’ society we’re living these days.
This blue website is a proof that yes Real good people (not the ‘fake’ ones!) DO still exist.
Like I said above, perhaps these good people are too afraid to OPEN up in Real-world too,.because they’re also afraid of getting outcasted, rejected by this dumb society & its bullshit rules & requirements.
I believe real Changes has to occur, sooner or later, but sooner is always better than late,
because I believe we only have 3 choices really when facing this giant shithole dilemma so rampant in our society today:
1. Give up, and die (but since we’ll all die anyway soon or later, don’t u think it’s at least WORTH to try first? See point #3 below)
2. Be changed by the world (so this is essentially YOU are adjusting to this sick world, System, and society
Or
3. BE the Change you wish/want to see yourself (Gandhi’s famous saying), and also like Tupac Shakur the famous hip-hop rapper once said: “even if I can’t change the world, I know that at very least I will create a *spark* in the minds to change the world”.
#3 is IMO worth to try,
especially more is if we’re BANDING together,
You know the sayings: two heads is better than one.
@ Strat, you don’t have to find that person to ask if you’ll get out of the mess.
You’re the person you ask. All you can do is keep making choices with the best intent. No one can ask more of you than that.
It’s okay to be f’d up…otherwise we’re judging ourselves and destined to not make any kind of improvement. As best you can, focus on how you want to feel. I often psyche myself out of how I really feel. It takes a lot of energy. I put on a brave face all the time….it’s okay, there’ s nothing wrong with it. Sending you good vibes….take care.