I’ve calmed down alot, now that I kinda pointed a finger at the reason for my distant, almost schiziophrenic behaviour.
Lately I’ve been doing far to many risky, adrenaline filled things. I’ve gotten drunk twice in the past 4 days, me and some friends bought alcohol from someone in broad daylight, right next to a police station, I’ve broken into a caravan, got my belly button peirced, witnessed a fight (almost got hit myself), all within the space of five days. So I think I need to calm down, and stay in.
I’ve sorted my head out for now. xD which is brilliant, ever since I just suddenly realised I’ve had an exciteing week, it’s just clicked. :3 I’m so much more relaxed now.
God, posting here and getting my thoughts out really helps alot, even if no-one comments.
I fucking love this site, ever since I’ve been posting, things have just, gotten better. I now I know how to avoid these schitzo moods, stay calm, sure, I can have fun and have a little bit of a rush, but I just can’t do it all the time, fucks up my head.
I feel so much fucking better, I really do, I’m bloody smileing!