General Tonight? by backtrackinlife 4/9/2011 written by backtrackinlife 4/9/2011 I don’t know but tonight seems good…. To end it 16 comments 0 Email Related posts Why Me? 10/18/2021 Goodguy sends love part2 10/18/2021 Heavy 10/18/2021 Satisfactory is good enough 10/18/2021 Numb to the Core 10/18/2021 Suicidal 10/18/2021 plaything 10/17/2021 When little to nothing brings you joy 10/16/2021 It hurts but I can’t cry for some... 10/16/2021 Protected: Ptsd 10/16/2021 16 comments Justathought 4/9/2011 - 2:49 pm Don’t end it tonight…Please don’t… Log in to Reply social-outcast 4/9/2011 - 3:48 pm Why does tonight feel right? There must be something thats triggered you to feel this way. I really hope you stay and talk some more. Log in to Reply mangomango 4/9/2011 - 4:11 pm I agree – what’s set you off? What’s making you feel like giving up today? Please, if you don’t talk to us, talk to a friend, a family member, a teacher. Call a distress line if you want to be anonymous. Go to the emergency room. Someone can help you get through this. Just talking about it can help, and there are people who care and are willing to listen. If you want, e-mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org. You are worth taking care of and you are worth being listened to. You don’t have to do this. You have a choice. You can always make the choice to kill yourself later – but you can never make the choice to live again once you’ve died. Have you given any thought to where you might go when you die? I believe in a Heaven and a Hell…. do you know where you’d go? I think you should consider that before you make a decision. I believe in a God who loves you and feels the pain you’re in…. he cares. He wants to be there, if you’ll let him. He came as Jesus Christ to die for us, to pay for our sins, so that we can go to Heaven when it’s time…. but only if you believe. And it’s not just about going to Heaven, but having a healing experience now by having a relationship with the God who made you and values you and loves you (see: knowgodpersonally.org). Please, be careful what you do…. you only have one life, and one soul. God thought you were worth saving, and I believe that too. Please stay. Log in to Reply backtrackinlife 4/9/2011 - 4:24 pm I have a feeling that won’t leave…. it’s worse today and no matter what I do or think about or anything… it just won’t quit.. Log in to Reply Justathought 4/9/2011 - 4:31 pm Oh love, it will be alright…I wish I could take the feeling away.. Log in to Reply social-outcast 4/9/2011 - 4:33 pm What is the feeling? Log in to Reply backtrackinlife 4/9/2011 - 6:33 pm Anxiety… I panic and get a feeling in my chest… I have race of thoughts and all that settles me is thinking baout dying or cutting… I’m going to do it soon.. not tonight… I want to leave a note for a few people and then I’m gone.. I want to tonight… So bad Log in to Reply backtrackinlife 4/9/2011 - 6:44 pm I’m going to overdose and cut my wrists deep. Wish me luck…. Log in to Reply social-outcast 4/9/2011 - 6:51 pm Hey come back, you just said not tonight……..whats going on? Please talk to us. If your leaving a note that means there are people you care about that you are leaving behind. Do they know how bad yoou are feeling right now? Log in to Reply life sucks thin u die 4/9/2011 - 6:55 pm yes come back plz talk to us Log in to Reply backtrackinlife 4/9/2011 - 7:40 pm Yeah there are people I care for… Family of course. And a few friends who told me to fuck off………Funny how you can think of the world of someone and they just think you’re worthless… No they don’t know I have suicidal thoughts but they know I’ve cut once and that I deal with depression. They don’t know how deep into it I am…. :/ Log in to Reply social-outcast 4/9/2011 - 7:42 pm You were told by friends to fuck off?? Thats not right….how are they still your friends? you deserve better. Log in to Reply backtrackinlife 4/9/2011 - 7:55 pm They aren’t.. I still care enough to leave them something when I kill myself though. I still love one… Log in to Reply social-outcast 4/9/2011 - 7:57 pm Well don’t please, they don’t deserve your kindness. Use your energy in getting yourself better. Being around people who are negative towards you like that will only make you worse….trust me i know. How old are you BTW? Log in to Reply backtrackinlife 4/9/2011 - 8:31 pm Young. 17 in a month :/. I know… I know they don’t, but… it’s just hard.. To let go of everyone.. Log in to Reply backtrackinlife 4/10/2011 - 11:02 am @mangomango : I don’t believe in heaven nor hell. I don’t believe in god. If there were a god, he would have proven he existed and made this world a better place. Made it so everyone didn’t hate themselves. Jesus Christ didn’t die for OUR sins. I’m sorry but I’m athiest :/ I appreciate your comment though. Trying to help me and all… But the point is, I’m going to end up killing myself and there really is no changing that…… Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.