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Life has been good to me in many ways and for the most part, I have really enjoyed my life and I am thankful for it. I rejoiced and thanked God when I could participate in physical activity: I enjoyed riding my bicycle, hiking and I was a good, I mean really good martial artist. In almost 35 years of working (post college) I have only had one week without income and my income has been by and large at least 2-3 times the average wage. I have healthy children and 3/4 dozen grand kids. I have had the enjoyment or leaning many things, giving charitably and blessing those in need.
But, I can see life coming to an end, as it must for all of us. I am starting to suffer the infirmities of older age: I can no longer get my wind to hike up the mountains, I have painful sciatica and peripheral neuropathy: and much of the time all I can think about is the burning pain in my feet. I will search for a medicinal answer to relieve the conditions as I LOVE life when I am healthy and physically fit: But should I not find an answer, I am going to take my own life. The approach would be something painless like a bleed-out (just fall asleep from the blood loss) and suffocation by helium inhalation or similar means.
My family will get my life insurance (the policies expire in 7 years) and I will be relieved of the physical pain and limitations that come with old age. Should I wait until my “natural” expiration, the policies will probably be expired and I will most likely be too physically infirm to even walk. I don’t know when that will occur, but I would guess within the next 5-6 years. I would expect that taking my own life would only shorten my life by 15 years or so…..and they are 15 year I do not wish to endure
Many folks value life for its own sake: I do not. being old, infirm and dependent on others is worse than death for me. Â Eventually the neuropathy will lead to lack of coordination and probably the inability to walk.
Thanks for listening guys!
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If you don’t mind my asking, how old are you? (:
59
Die doing something you love…
I must say that I understand where you are coming from. I definitly do not want to deal with the problems that old age brings, probably the reason that I want to die young(ish), I know whats coming. Will your family get the insurance if you kill yourself though? I don’t know if that adds up
It seems these days we are trying to prolong life further and further and to what end? we should be allowed to choose. It’s about quality of life not quantity
Wastedlife. Thanks. Yes, my wife will get the insurance and my investments: if she manages them wisely the funds will last her life time.
My point exactly….what is the point in prolonging life past the point where I cannot contribute to my family and society, being a burden to others and frustrated beyond comprehension with a feeble, hopeless life I no longer want and consuming financial resources my family can use to better their lives rather than waste on medical care for me when I would prefer to be euthanized.
I have a relative who just committed suicide and when I found out why he did it, I think the decision was the right one: He had liver failure that was quite advanced and probably would have died very painfully within 12-24 months: what he did was faster and less painful for him than wasting away from organ failure.
My life has been good and I am thankful for that.
Maybe I will go out watching Tombstone or Rambo!
Tombstone all the way 😉 Doc Holliday vs Johnny Ringo