He lies, he cheats, he abuses, he tears you down over and over again, he tells you that he wishes you’d killed yourself before you met him and fucked up his life, and he tries to convince all of your friends that you are a monster. He hasn’t spoken to you in a year and a half. The world has moved on.
And you still love him.
All of your ego is buried under how much he hates you now and how much he seemed to love you back then.
Everyone is telling you that he was scum, that he was nothing, that he was not worth this much attention, and that all you’re doing is “giving him the power” (not that he’s aware of it now, of course, since he wants nothing to do with you and has erased you from his life). You know that it’s stupid. You know that it’s pathetic. Everyone is telling you to move on, and damn, do you want to, and you have TRIED.
And you still love him.
And you cannot move anywhere.
The world shifts and turns and moves forward, and you cannot move anywhere.
Tell me, then: that stupid sort of love that sucks you in like quicksand and won’t let you out – does it ever stop?
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is it weird that this is exactly whats happening exept its only been a year
My life in a nutshell </3
same. it sucks:(
Do they know what they did to us, do you think? Would they give a shit if they did? Would they stop doing it to others? Or were we the only ones they treated this way because we were the only ones who deserved it?
Good question. I would ask but he never answers my calls or texts