This is something I wrote 13 years ago, when I was feeling a helluva lot better. I know some folks don’t want to hear it, they don’t have to read it. Some people here need friends, and that’s what this is about…. being friends. Not just saying you are, but actually being there when needed. It’s on the long side, sorry.
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Lately I’ve been feeling
like I really don’t fit in,
I don’t know where I’m going,
I’m ashamed of where I’ve been.
It doesn’t seem to matter,
where I go or what I do,
the people with whom I can relate
seem to be a precious few.
I can’t put my finger on the cause,
I haven’t found the cure,
but if I know one thing at all,
here’s what I know for sure
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If you want to be a friend,
you don’t need material gain,
my friends will always be there,
when I need to share my pain.
Deep inside we’re all the same,
you know that we’re all brothers,
instead of just yourself,
try loving one another.
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Four days later now,
the feelings finally gone,
nothing’s really changed except
that now I carry on.
Don’t ask me how or why, I beg,
‘cause no one knows the answer,
I’m just trying to survive,
and live happily ever after.
Emotions can be quite the burden,
and keep a good man down,
here’s one way to share the load,
and help you lose the frown.
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
If you want to be a friend,
you don’t need material gain,
my friends will always be there,
when I need to share my pain.
Deep inside we’re all the same,
you know that we’re all brothers,
instead of just yourself,
try loving one another.
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I’m not a sage or guru,
I don’t have all the answers,
just like you, I feel at times,
I’m being chased by a pride of panthers.
But if the things I’m sayin’
can help someone at all,
then I better say ‘em,
and not hide behind a wall.
Just one thing I want to say;
“When you’re feeling down and low,
listen to the words I sing,
there’s something you should knowâ€:
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
Yes, I want to be your friend,
I don’t need material gain,
you know I’ll always be there,
when you need to share your pain.
Deep inside we’re all the same,
you know that we’re all brothers,
instead of loving just ourselves,
you know we love each other.
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Thanks for the cyberspace.
26 comments
Great it really spoke to me, Good friends are always precious, and when you lose one it feels like the world has ended.
Thank you.
Yes it hurts to lose friends. It also hurts to find out someone you *thought* was your friend turns out not to be.
I know, i hate that. I have read alot of your ealier posts, whats going on in your life now.
Isolated, alone, broke and no work. Other than that, life is peachy 🙂
My cat did come back after being gone for 3 days. That’s the best thing to happen to me in over 6 months.
I’m still feeling better than I was 3 weeks ago, but that is such a fragile thing.
How ’bout you? Things okay?
Well im gladur cat came back. And that really sucks, im sorry.
Ya kinda, other than alienating a good friend yesterday im fine :/
Going into 11th grade next year.
well, true friends will understand that you didn’t mean to hurt them and then they will forgive you. Hopefully they are a true friend. It might take some time for them to get over the hurt, but then they’ll forgive you and you will be friends again.
ugh, I remember high school. I hated it. Things were much better for after I got out of school.
me. were much better for *me*
Ya i cant wait, how old are you
I’m old. will be 53 in 3 months.
Na not old, Its not late to be happy, find a girl friend that mite hlp
ya, that would help. Easier said than done in my situation.
Dont worry, Ive nevr had a girl friend either, Is it ok if i ask wher u live
I live in a very small town in the Rocky Mtns. Less than 2000 people. Girls my age that are available are as rare as planets that support life.
So there is at least one!
and more, alot ofplanets support life,
heh heh yeah, one. I’ve met her and she immediately found someone else 😉
well, compared to the number that don’t, it’s pretty rare. To be honest, most people in town are 30’s or under.
At least your sense of humor is still intact!
Sometimes I day dream of being alone; I married young so I never got to experience single life in all it’s glory.
I’ve been alone my entire life. Usually I don’t mind, but when the depression sets in it helps to have someone around. Not necessarily a woman, but I don’t have any friends that are close enough I can talk to them about certain things.
Being single is just like being married, it’s over rated 🙂
What a perfect poem. Or song? I can almost hear it with music… You’ve really got talent with rhythm & rhyme.
Friends really do save our ass, don’t they?
Did you used to have a lot of friends? Could it be the sudden loss of friends that makes life so hard to bear? This internet thing is funny… it has made “real friends” obsolete… but at the same time it has opened up a world of “virtual friends”. I don’t know what to make of it.
I used to have a lot of real friends–I suppose we all did when we were young. Then suddenly we get old and they all vanish. And it’s so hard to make new ones.
I’m rambling again. And I feel like a clod for being a downer after reading such a great, uplifting poem. I think I’ll just shut up & read it again.
@Scooby – Thanks. Posted for you. Wanted to do something to try and make you feel better.
I wrote it with the idea of it being a song (hence the chorus part is repeated). Never put the music to it tho. It’s really about someone who said they were a friend and then when I needed them the most (at a time similar to now) they couldn’t handle it and weren’t there (like so many people).
Never really had a lot of friends. Not close ones. Not the type that I could talk to about this kind of stuff.
I love this so much!!
so yeah, you’ve helped someone.
Thank you, it’s good to know I’ve helped.
Hey FTS, I’d like to consider you one of my best friends even though we’ve never met. You’ve helped me a helluva lot more than the real people in my life, that’s for sure.
“It’s really about someone who said they were a friend and then when I needed them the most (at a time similar to now) they couldn’t handle it and weren’t there (like so many people).”
Oh man, that’s my big gripe with the people around me. When you really get down to the nitty gritty… depression, thoughts of suicide, etc… that’s when the fake friends turn tail & run. And it sends you even deeper into depression.
I guess “normal” people don’t know how to deal with it. But they can at least try. Or pretend they give a snot. Instead they run away like you’ve got some contagious disease or smth.
Yah now that you mention it, I’ve never really had close friends I could talk to about this kind of stuff either. Actually zero. Maybe that one girlfriend I had… but I loused that up…
Anyway, I’m really grateful that you posted this. I haven’t been on this site as much as I should & I hope to catch up on your poetry & read more. It’s really good medicine.
Thanks Scooby. Like I said, I just feel like I should repay the debt. I know I’ve said it before, but there is no way for you to realize exactly what you did for me. If I can do the same for you, I’ll be lucky.
I haven’t posted as much as I did for a while, but I’m here everyday, almost all day. I always look for your posts or replies.
Friends. yeah. I guess I can understand why people run away like we’ve got the plague or something, (cause that’s what our society teaches them) but damn…. I wish I had that one person that could or would at least pretend to understand. You’re as close as I’ve got to that. Thank you. Kinda weird, but yah, I’ve been on this site for 20 days and feel like you are one of the best friends I’ve ever had.
If we can both help each other, who knows, we may both survive a while longer.
Maybe a little late on this, but that’s awesome! I could just hear music going with it as I read it. Great work, really makes me appreciate the true friends that I am lucky enough to have. Even when everything else sucks, I know there’s a few people who will always be there for me.