Okaie so I’m going to sum up every thing real quick from my last two posts.
One every one was dieing in front of my face. My parents (Last year, while I was living in Germany!<3) and my real brother und sister died. Then my adopted sister, sweet as can be died and so did my best friend.
Two Sisters funeral.
anyway…. i feel all depressed because I remember the memories and I feel like crap….. I’m like wow… what do I do with my life? … do i stay? or do I go? . . . any advice?
One every one was dieing in front of my face. My parents (Last year, while I was living in Germany!<3) and my real brother und sister died. Then my adopted sister, sweet as can be died and so did my best friend.
Two Sisters funeral.
anyway…. i feel all depressed because I remember the memories and I feel like crap….. I’m like wow… what do I do with my life? … do i stay? or do I go? . . . any advice?
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Hi Kai. Wow… It seems you’ve been going through some tough times. Personally, I haven’t had to deal with the loss of someone I love but I can imagine the intensity of your pain.
Perhaps though, another way of looking at this is that your parents… Your brother and sisters… Your best friend… They would want you to feel happy when you remember them in your memories. I’m sure that they loved you very much when they were here and that they still do.
Despite how hard living seems to be, perhaps you could live your life to the fullest for them. As important as it is to live for yourself, it is a great comfort to know that you are living for a good cause.
That probably doesn’t make any sense but I’m not sure how else to describe it…
Saying that, I suggest you stay, and try your best to live life to it’s fullest. Sure, there will be some hard times, but it seems you have many people who will be looking after you from above.
I’m 39 and transgendered and have been estranged from my family a long time even though I still love them. Since the last time I saw them just before I went full time at 17 my mum, an uncle, my three remaining grandparents and my dad have all died and I wasn’t there for any of them. Yet to this day I still feel their loss and the way in which I lost them keenly, in particular my mum’s death which I’ll never be able to get over. I was in my late 20s when she passed away, so in a way I totally know how you’re feeling…
In the end what you do is your choice and up to you and you alone, but you have to weigh up the pros and cons of choosing to die or to live. To join them in an uncertain afterlife or honour their memory by staying alive…