i am so depressed i cry everyday & im only 17. im not normal and i havnt been ever since my ex boyfriend broke up with me almost a year ago. i started to see him again and he doesnt want a relationship. my heart is in a million pieces. to see him happy and getting with all these different girls and throwing parties every weekend. i feel like nothing. like i dont even matter. my life sucks. i just wish i could get help somehow bc i tried everything i could and nothing works. i cant even sleep at night bc all i think about is him. i cant do this anymore. its like im in a deep dark hole all by myself. i have no one to talk to bc i feel like people will think im crazy. i wish i had the balls to kill myself, bc i cant live my life how i want, its like im being controled.
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You are 17. I believe you are old enough to predict what our responses will be to this. The way I see it, life don’t begin until your first paid vacation anyways. Make an assessment of your life when that day comes. Until then its play the game by the rules and you will do fine. Don’t worry about dating your ex because people don’t date anymore. When you get out there is pretty much get together whenever until college is done unless you have a solid plan. Then you worry about the relationship.
I know the feeling, I’m kinda in a similar situation myself. 17, girlfriend left me back in december after a year and 2 months together. I sunk into depression and thats why I’m here. Dropped out of my band, college, don’t go out, cry everyday, self harm etc. Tablets and councelling are doing nothing for me, but like you I’m too scared to take my life aswell. I’ve tried, but couldn’t go through with it.
My ex is out partying aswell, got with another guy a week after splitting with me. The pain is horrible just hearing about it I can’t imagine how much it must hurt you seeing him like that. On one side, it’s nice to know he’s happy but on the other it still hurts to hell.
The thing you said about being in a dark hole, I’ve thought about that alot too, it’s sort of like even if you wanted to feel better you just can’t think that way anymore (atleast thats how I get it).
But yeah, thats what I got from your post since I’m in a similar situation.
im 17 also and know exactly the feeling that you have i know it sucks but you just need to find somrthing to live for or find a good friend that you can trust to be there and listen. if you need me i can listen to you
There’s a good saying I heard somewhere: “Don’t do something permanently stupid because you are temporarily upset.”
Hello
The proposal that I would make to you would be that you first realise that there is a priority here that needs to be fixed before you think about boyfriend or boyfriends, and that goes for the two of you that have written the same thing.
Have you noticed that some people break relations up and they go to pieces, they think of suicide, skip eating, harm themselves, get ultra depressed while others, although also being hit, they are like more solid and can take the beat without going to pieces ?
It is not that they did not care or that they are cold persons. It is that they were emotionally sound and well fed and that allows them to take blows from life without breaking in parts.
All teenagers engage in loving relationships, and they get deeply involved, having sex etc but however, they were not prepared to engage emotionally to that point, but of course, how could they know that young ?
Some of these teenagers were, before they ever met their boy/girlfriend, already emotionally delicate, and that makes matters worse, because what happens is that when they meet their lover, they litterally throw their hearts and minds over to him/her. The risk is that if that breaks up, then the person breaks down completely shattered.
So, now girl and boy in there, when you are thinking about your ex doing this or that, you are not going anywhere other than torturing yourselves and getting worse and worse, while precisely you need to re-study yourselves and realise that there is a part in you that needs to be cared for before engaging into such passionate relationships.
Yes, I fully understand that it is pointless what I say because you just want that back, but that leads you again to nowhere. Even if he or she returned, the problem has not been solved. First you need to give your heart a big hug and then do distract yourselves going out with other friends and relatives while at the same time, think about how you need to protect yourselves from such blows. It will take a long time, but it is necessary.
hugs to both
regards
O
Although I do not agree with Oracle on many points – an earlier post – I do agree with him here.
I know it hurts but relationships can not be the basis of you emotional stability, the stability must come from within, you need to put yourself first your priority must be yourself. Your speculations do nothing for yourself and can only add to the pain.
It seems to me, that those who seek their own stability in relationships are those who lack emotional stability in themselves. They are seeking to fix something that they see is broken, often their self esteem.
I know that it is difficult but you lives need to be greater than just your partnerships.
I am sorry, it is difficult, but take it from me, your happiness can not depend solely on the love of another.
Take care.
Completely agree with cracked (and our disagreements were just about politics and the UK, nothing more)
Do listen to us boy and girl. Truly, listen to us. Take this event as the opportunity to start doing things for yourselves.
In another book I wrote, about human relationships, I do speak a lot about teenage relationships and relationships in general. What is happening today is that people go out to seek love and compensation, when that is wrong from the onset. You have to go out to give. If you are not filled before you meet someone, you are emotionally dependent on what the other feels, does or sneezes. It cant be like that.
hugs
I feel for you. I have to say 17 is the perfect age to be….everything great is ahead for you, instead of in the rear-view-mirror for someone like me (I’m 47). I know you love this guy, but you will eventually get over him. I promise. You may always love him but you will come to accept that you can’t be with him. I know the hurt in that statement. Believe me, I know.
I loved a boy once….still do…….I still cry over him at times (it was 20 years ago)…but I have fully accepted that he isn’t mine. It’s ok, something I can live with. Anyway, you are 17, lucky you, the best is still ahead of you so hang in there.