Seeing as I’m on the verge of a relapse. Harming again, freakin’ burnt myself with a lighter and it’s made a 3cm squared burn on my arm, broke down in the school toilets today, and blahdy blah, the usual shinanigins that go with depression. I’m making little tasks.
1. Get over these trust issues, the whole ”she/he’s ignoreing me” ”they’re talking about me” ”they won’t keep it a secret” ”she’s going to betray me”. I need rid of it.
2. PARANOIAS. Dear god, that needs to go. I need to stop getting scared at the littlest things.
3. Forgive my brother, he’s not the kid who assaulted me anymore. He’s a brother, my brother. I think I’m alomst there anyway, when I imagine what he did, I don’t imagine his face.