My teacher said this today: “If you’re having a down day you can’t just wish to be seven again, you can’t wish it all away. You have to learn to adapt”
It made me think “*****.”
My teacher said this today: “If you’re having a down day you can’t just wish to be seven again, you can’t wish it all away. You have to learn to adapt”
It made me think “*****.”
I’ve never had strong feelings for someone like I did with this one person; however, we never met. Apparently this means nothing to some people. Anyway; today I learned that he’d been more suicidal than I originally expected (with a history of attempts). I’m frustrated because my love couldn’t reach him -which only proves to me that love is bullshit; it cannot exceed the limits of distance, and it cannot heal broken hearts. I usually don’t bother myself with this kind of issue as it usually is just a matter of brain chemistry… but it’s making me feel uncomfortable.
I want to see the blood
I want to feel the pain
I’m trekking through the mud
I’ve slowly gone insane
And now I just don’t care
It’s crowding in my brain
I’m ripping out my hair
I’m drowning in the pain
My heart has turned to ice
My body is all numb
You think that I’m so nice
But honey you’re just dumb
I feel I’m in a cube
Boxed in from every side
You say it’s a bad mood
So I’ll just go and hide
I peek out from my hole
The darkness keeps me in
The thoughts, they take their toll
There’s no way that I can win
The days are dragging by
The end is creeping near
I’ll leave it with a sigh…
One […]
Anna my friend i certanitly hope you are ok. Please do not go through what you said you were gonna do PLEASE i beg of you. Im worried about you,      Â
I cant help ur lonliness but im always availiable. if u dnt want to talk just give me a sign ur ok. Please. Im not sleepn til i get some sign your ok.
Brandon(Nihilism00)
@ 34 I may not belong here
The voices are screaming. I don’t know what I did wrong. Probably everything. I have to scream just to think over them. They keep getting louder and louder. Why do they do that to me? Stop yelling. Stop. Just stop. What kind of trick is this? Please stop. I hate it.
STOP.
That’s it, I’m finished.
I’m going to hang myself.
I’ll drink and I’ll do drugs before
I’ll even cut myself like I do everyday.
But I swear, I’m gone this time.
5th time lucky I guess.
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
We are so young
our lives have just begun
but already we’re considering
escape from this world
and we’ve waited for so long
for this moment to come
was so anxious to be together
together in death
Won’t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won’t you die
Baby join me in death
Won’t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
This world is a cruel place
and we’re here only to lose
so before live tears us apart let
death bless me with you
Won’t you die tonight […]
Love is just a word
Not even a feeling because if it were things would be different I hate people who say that your not alone. Apparently we are if we have to talk online about the way we feel. My heart has turned to coal the one I thought I loved well maybe he’ll see me in the afterlife if there is such a thing. I feel as if I’ve already died I am already transparent nobody would ever miss me.
my heart hurts I sit in bed and think for hours why the hell does it hAve to be me why? There’s nothing that seems to take away the pain and just thinking about him makes me realize he’ll never be mine. Why go through that suffering why do it when I can make it stop why do I deserve to be this? Between the shit at home and school I just can’t do it.
There’s a lady who’s sure all that glitters is gold
And she’s buying the stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she’s buying the stairway to heaven.
There’s a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
‘Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there’s a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.
There’s a feeling I get when I look to […]
I’m 15 years old and have finally decided that after all my older posts, all my rants, I’m gonna commit suicide.
Not sure yet and how yet tho, thts the only prob.
I’m not going to bore you people with my story, seeing as its not all that exciting or saddening, lets just say tht I have my reasons.
If I did decide to live I would be turning 16 on the 19th of September, I would have become a pyschologist and a writer on the side, I would’ve had about 3-4 kids maybe even adopt some and wouldn’ve tried having the best life I could.
But tht’s the […]
There has been a lot of debate about wheter to use the Helium or ********, and wheter the Helium sold at party balloon time cabisters is oure or not.
A much bigger issue in the long run is going to be the bag. If the bag is too tight, it will burst before brain death. If it is too lose, it will not hold well enough, and can even fall off. How to make it truly ideal?
I have gotten to a point in my life where I don’t think it is worth living anymore. Very few things make me happy anymore. I feel I am in more mental pain then other wise and if I am in more pain than I am not what is the use. I haven’t felt really happy in months. I have realized to day that I will never be able to have a long term relationship with anyone. Including family or friends. If I am around anyone for too long things eventually go poorly. I’m pretty much a loner. I don’t have a friend in the […]
She was crying
Drip drop splashes the tears
He was lying
And He didn’t care
She fought so hard
Only to gain nothing
He did very little
Only to get what he wanted
She blamed herself
He laughed to himself
He was like hell
And she was heaven……
everytime i log in i hit remember me. but when i get back on it doesnt. why wont it fucking remember me. i guess no matter what i fucking do it wont matter. after i kill myself it will be like i was never here. i havnt cut in two weeks…until today. i didnt really cut i just started fucking jabbing at my flesh with the blade not realizing what i was doing until i was done. i should probably go to the hospital…id rather bleed to death.
It took everything away
and now im standing infront of a bay.
It hurt everything i got
and now im going to take this shot.
We are not friends
but today i should be cleanse.
As i hold out my hand
and develop my plan.
I know for sure
we are going to have a tour.
I know…we wont come back
cause soon i will be attack.
Dont be scared
when everything is in a flared.
I have the rope
and it took all mine hope.
Suicide…you surprise me
but its time to be free.
when im alone i grow to hate. i tell myself this is the last time ill ever date you. but then when my phone rings at 2am and i see that its you i cant help but to pick up. all that hate goes away. the sound of your voicce just automatically makes me smile. and then when im half asleep you say baby i love you. and even though i know you dont know what it means to love me it still sounds like music to my ears. and even though im unsure i love you too </3
There are for the most part 2 parts of your body wich you need to keep the basic functions going;the heart and the brain.
Technicly speaking the heart exists only to pump blood and most importantly oxyden into the brain. If this flow of oxygen for one reason or another is damaged, then brain damage(in most cases)will occure. Therefor one might say, that all death is always brain death. Technicly one can both die, and return back from the death. There have been number of people who have suffered a cardiac arrest and came back from the dead!
http://www.near-death.com/storm.html
Here is a man, who was in a coma […]
Hey suicide project, its been a while. Ofcourse i thought i was fine. But that was before the last 30 cuts. Please help me. My counsellor at school doesn’t help me. She says i’m not depressed, but thats because i was too scared to tell her about my cutting. To tell her i wanted to die. She says i just have alot of anxiety issues. And crying alot is nothing, its a daily thing now, i’ll get used to it.
And yeah, my best friend doesn’t love me anymore. Maybe hes just bored, or its all the cutting and crying and death notes. I don’t know, […]
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