I wish everyone would give me a chance to gather my thoughts. I wish I could go one whole day without having to deal with drama created by the people who surround me. I wish I could just leave and never come back. I WISH I could join peace corps right now and leave and just drop all connections with everyone. I wish I could start fresh. People expect me to be okay with the drama they create, the damage they do, the hurt they put me through. Maybe it’s my fault because I gave them the chance. I gave them the trust and the hope. Maybe it’s my fault because I really should know my place. I should know where I stand with guys. With anyone actually. I know I’m less than anyone else. I know I’m of less importance. I know that I deserve to be hit and smacked and hurt. I already know this. I guess I should take the opportunity when it comes.. I should go to where it all started and allow myself to go through it again and again until I snap. Until I swallow a whole bottle. Until I drink til I don’t know who I am. Until I get so bruised, hurt, and shattered that I give up every little bit of hope that I had left.
Maybe.
Understand that I’m going to be taking off comments and allow none from now on. I’m tired of people talking trash. Enjoy