I can’t help wondering how many of the people on here are bipolar, like me.
It’s driving me insane. Â Just… everything cycling, never being able to promise anything because I don’t know how I’ll feel in 2 hours/days/months, never being able to consistently try or achieve anything in a career, in relationships, in hobbies. Â I’ve had so many medications and none of them seem to work. Â Not enough to stop the cycles.
I’m not that keen on dying, but life in this condition is hardly living. Â It’s a joke. Â I’m an amusing failure waiting to happen.
Anyone else in the same boat?
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I can’t say my case is entirely the same, but I have MDD or “unipolar disorder”. It’s caused me a lot of problems throughout the years, yeah. Currently my doctor seems to think I’ll do okay without any kind of medication. HA HA.
It’s you versus the disorder, man. Grab it by the throat and make it your *****. You are stronger than this thing.
Finding the right medication can be pretty hit or miss. You just have to keep trying until you find something that works for you.
You might want to consider seeing a psychologist or psychotherapist along with your medications. With mood disorders, sometimes having somebody to talk to is just as important as managing your condition chemically.
I agree with DraAtHelvete, i can say that i AM in the same boat as you, I know exactly how you feel.
I guess all you can really do is keep your head up, and as ^he^ said, make it your *****, do NOT let it beat you, at times it WILL get harder and harder, but instead of hating it and wishing it were gone, make it a part of you, dominate it.
You gotta learn to keep your promises, especially to god!
No you’re definitely not alone.
Bipolar: in fact there’s a “group” of personality called “INFP”
Try google: free MBTI test , and try to take that personality assessment test.
There are even other Psychological names/groups/category that’s very similar characteristics like bipolar, eg: Too Many Aptitudes (TMA), even Indigo.
Try google all of them, and open ur mind to a new world.
You’ll be surprised to know that you’re definitely not alone in this vast vast planet.
And the only reason why ‘bipolar’ is termed as disorder is because society (mainstream, majority of people in this world) can’t understand and unaware and even sadly sometimes even being ignorant/don’t want to know/learn that such type of people EXIST.
But like others have said above, no matter as tough & hard as it is,
being bipolar also have the unique strengths, even talents.
It is already founded that bipolar folks are usually creative-type of people (which sadly, also often got underestimated just because mainstream society doesn’t understand it!).
So try to ‘tame’ it, live with it, but unleash the ‘strengths’ that not any “normal” people can have it!
And you’ll be the unique genius that will contribute a lot.
Screw what other people said,
what’s important is how YOU live your life, and use all your potentials.
Make this only earthly life worth it. don’t succumb to hatred, no matter what.
And remember always, you’re not and never alone.
i am bipolar. i can fight it. sometimes i can’t. it is debilitating. sometimes i can’t get out of bed. sometimes i can’t smile. i lose time. i can’t stand the medications, so each day, moment to moment, i never know how i will feel. i can be the happiest person in the world, or want to end it all. i truly love what life is, i just hate the way i feel about myself, and the world, and the people in it. but chances are, you only get one chance.