Fuck, I can’t get over

Trying to imagine what it’s like to not exist. I’m serious about this, and I’m one of those people who always likes to know everything about something. I’m not worrying about screwing it up, I know what I’m doing and I’ll get the job done. Like I said, I’m serious about this, I’m not gunna start bitching and whining about why, but I do wanna hear from people who have accepted death. I’m not scared of the dying, or the pain, it’s just the whole…”not even nothing, no conciseness, no black, no.. anything, not even no anything”..thing. I realize that there will be no me to care about being dead but..I just can’t even comprehend or imagine what it’s like. I also realize that..technically, all of us were dead for over 13 billion years before we were even born..so really, all of us have experienced death…or, I guess lack of existence but, I just can’t wrap my head around it…anyone have thoughts?