Kaylee(me):You never talk to me anymore
Jeson:It’s hard to talk to you
Me:I feel like you’ve given up on this..
Jeson:I’ve changed
Me:You’re going to let this go? You’re going to say you love me and care for me and that I’m your best friend and act like we can go back to normal after you admit you’ve given up?
Jeson:It’s not that
Me:You can talk to everyone else easily….
Jeson: What do you mean?
Me: when we talk you are always staring at your phone smiling because of a girl
Jeson:What are you talking about? Â I talk to her like I talk to you.
Me:Please don’t do this.. Don’t lie anymore.. Don’t bend the truth… Just stop…
Jeson:Okay
I leave the chatroom.
He logs off.
I’m choking back tears.. I believed he cared.. I believed he would always be there and he is leaving again.. He is hurting me again.. Leaving…  I can’t handle this.. I can’t handle someone else leaving.  I’m done.  I’m done.  I’m going to take the pills.  I’m going to do it.  I’m going to find a blade.  I’m going to take a pill.  One by one.  Finish the bottle.  I don’t want to wake up.  I’m going to drink the bottle of rum.  I don’t want to be here.  I can’t stop crying.  Bye
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my heart has been broken and bruised again and again. just when i think it can’t hurt anymore, it does. it has slowly turned black. i have slowly built a wall. i don’t want to let anyone in. but just to save you from yourself, i would do it again. please don’t go.
I know its easier said than done, but you shouldn’t give another person that much power over your emotions
I can understand… I had someone in my life… I’m still crying for him. After more than 5 years… But i’m still alive. I’m here, but not because of him… I will never forget, but I’m just used to it…