I thought about writing my suicide note awhile ago, but I’m not sure what to put in it. Do I mention names of the people who caused this? Do I tell my story of why I did it? Or should I even leave a note at all, and let the people find out for themselves. I don’t know if it matters if I leave a note or if I don’t leave one because people would just think of me as that suicidal lunatic, most people think that of me right now anyways. I cannot wait to die, I hate this world, and almost all of […]
August 2011
Okay this is so  much torture but i will pass. Im Eleven Years old. i have suffered in the pass. my mom is 40 years old. i think my mom has rude way of speaking so i speak to her the same like Fuck you Jack ass And all this others stuff. I Have A Blue Dairy With A Puppy on it.And i hide the key  so my mom doesnt gets in it and she got it and read my  everything my crushes, My Boyfriends Everthing.when i mean everything if it would take her to days to read it she wont miss a page . […]
Any more i feel like my only purpose in life is to be used by people who don’t thank the people that help them to the best of their abilities but instead walk off with taking a second look like it was nothing and they just wanted the free ride…. I’m to the point to where if anybody comes up to me and asks me for something and i don’t catch any sincerity from them i’ll tell them to f**k off and walk away… I don’t know how much more i can take of it and I’m to the point where i want to end […]
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It wasn’t my first attempt at suicide—I had battled major depression since adolescence—but it was the first time I had ever sought medical […]
I am like an alien and so fucked up that I can’t relate to anyone. This sounds corny, but this used to be a good thing and people used to love me for it. I used to be kind of messed up in a good way. I was a smart straight A student, studied music endlessly and obsessively and had almost an unlimited inspiration for arts of all kinds. I was funny, likeable, fun, well networked, passionate, moral, on track for scholarships (now I lack money for college and have to work), on track for Ivy League schools… I could go on. But what basically […]
Another day with no one there. I now have been lonely for days now. But it’s all okay , I try to keep myself busy and not think about how I’m left with no one. But all I manage to do is cover my eyes. And everytime I open them , it’s still there. Looking at me. Telling me I’m all alone now. I’m all alone…
But that’s okay too. I can have a peaceful time with myself , learn new things, try new things. Or so I thought. Then there comes this sleeping disorder , which turned my days to misery. I now haven’t slept […]
Soon I’ll be gone because I’ve finally lost the last thing that truly mattered to me.
This existence was a complete waste.
Can’t feed others, without feeding yourself
Can’t save others, without saving yourself
Can’t love others, without loving yourself
Yet still I try.
How did I come to hate myself this much?
Why am I neglecting my own needs?
Why
Why
Why
Hello… Are you okay? Do you need some cheering up. Or you just having a difficult time right now? Its okay if you ask me to leave i understand. Why do you always put yourself down? Is your self esteem that low? Do you not like the way you look? Is this the way you always feel? The way you are you look so alone. So empty. So not full of life. Do you want a smile on your face or am i just asking you to much questions. Its okay if your quiet annoy with me. I find myself pretty annoying too. Does it […]
its been a while and im just wondering even though ive asked once before but i want new opinions where does the skin scar less? dont ask y just give ideas.
You cannot remember the last time you felt happy, and it seems like the sun always shines around you, just missing your skin. When you look at yourself in the mirror, all you see is an empty husk, which you try to fill with food, drugs, alcohol, sex… something.
Everything I say will sound cliche and insincere, but honestly, all I want to do is talk to you, to hold your hand the only way I know how.
Send me an email. Rant, weep, ramble, ponder, anything. And please remember that the sun will always rise.
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I’m not yet twenty. Twenty hits me in less than 20 days.
I’m terrified. I know I’m not living to be thirty. I don’t want to live to be twenty for god’s sake.
It’s not that life isn’t good, I’m just so tired. I’ve been tired for half of my life. It’s a feeling I can’t get away from. No matter how I try.
I knew love once. I ran as fast as I could. He likes to get high and text me about what a whore I am or how much he still loves me. Starting pregnancy rumors about me.
I don’t think I […]
Hi
I am a 35 yrs old. I have been visiting this site on and off a while. I have been fighting with depression for a very long time. I felt so shit today that I just had to write down my feelings. I am sure that they are no new news for the most of you, but here they are
How I feel:
• I have been depressed for such a long time that I can not remember how it feels like not to be.
• I cant remember how it feels like to be happy and optimistic
• Everyday there is like a cloud hanging over my head
Hello everyone. I’m not exactly a suicidal person. I didn’t cut myself once and I want to live. But after all the reading , I feel somehow close to you all. There’s really a sharing community I can finally admire.
Back to point , even though I don’t plan to suicide , I want to write here , get my boredom and sadness out of me , and hope to make good friends. I’m aware I’m not in a very social group to get friends , and this site isn’t here for it. But all the common point of the fellows here is that each of […]
All the time I think I shouldn’t have even been born. I see beauty in the whole world. I see beauty in birds and I can delicious smells in flowers. I feel the warmth of the sun and the gentle light of the moon. I can sketch these and I can paint these and all the colours run together to create beautiful portraits of the world around me. I can sit for hours observing a single blade of grass, and then draw it down to the molecule.
When I show someone the artwork I’ve worked so hard on, I get a “that’s nice” or “good for you” […]
I think about suicide all the time. I don’t feel I have any value whatsoever. Mostly due to what a miserable ass I am but being old (I’m 47) just makes it worse.  I don’t know how I made it this far to be honest.  I have just given up on life. I hate myself. I feel like someone who can’t handle anything. My life really isn’t that bad on paper (I have a job and house and all that crap). But I am alone and that’s probably the main cause of my depression. My husband told me towards the end of my marriage that not […]
I’m 25 and I’ve been severely depressed since I was a small child. Â I’ve attempted suicide almost a dozen times since I was 14, and can’t seem to get it done. Â No matter what I do or how many loving and caring people I try to surround myself with, I can’t help feeling useless, worthless, powerless and like nothing I do will matter.
I’ve been emotionally and psychologically destroyed by my family, peers and the system that I’ve grown up surrounded by. Â I feel as though almost everything I do is some form of capitulation to the institution, especially my suicidal thoughts and feelings. Â I constantly […]
i have contemplated suicide many times, and been unsucessful with all attempts. I remember just last xmas i awoke in hospital with a nurse standing over holding a needle near my arm. Just to be told that i was fine and so were my blood results. Yet another overdose that was not to be… I looked at him and asked him angrily Why Did U Not Let me DIE? I am ashamed of myself and disgusted in whom I have become. Dont get me wrong. life is precious. Well… Everyone’s but mine. To put things in context for you…
I was taken away from my […]
Today is one of the days I don´t know, why I am still around. The whole day I wondered about being here and I wondered about my life so far and what the future might bring for me. The conclusions are not good.
My family is a growing pain in my ass. It was bad for a long time before, but since my dads death in january it is getting worse and worse. I wonder when I´ll reach the deepest dark. And if I am able to stand up again. Right know, I don´t think so.
After July I felt really good and confident – I met […]
so the last time i wrote on her was in March and it’s now August.. i would like to say thing have changed and gotten better but na that hasn’t happen to me,.. i went in to a mental hospital awhile ago was in there for a month got out of there and  that’s when i fucked up just started smoking weed everyday. and it been like fuck 4 months or something. i hate myself. i can’t stop. i dont know how.  it’s fucked with my head. i don’t wanna do anything. and i mean i go out and try but seems like bad things just happen to […]