So I wasn’t going to post on here again until I finally decided to do the deed but I wrote this short poem, and wanted to share…
I long to forget my fears and close my weary eyes
To fade away and leave my pains behind
I long to speak to you in words I just cannot articulate
To show that this is what I most desire
I long to cut my worldly ties and say my sad goodbyes
To choose the time of my own release
I long to end this life unlived and take that final leap
To say I love you but sorry I must leave
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That speaks to my soul.
I understand the pain so well…..
I feel that Shelly.I can understand what u mean by ‘ending a life unlived’
Does this mean you’re going?
It means I want to go, desperately. So bad it hurts in fact…
One of our dogs died about five weeks ago, I miss him!!! =(
I love my dogs to death too!
I know this sounds dumb but I’d made a pledge to stay alive until they passed away, so now it’s just his little half sister left. Then I’m free…
That is if I was totally free to do with my life as I saw fit I’d do the deed as soon as possible and be over with this world. I mean it is my life after all and I’m the one who has to fucking well live it, but what I want or how I feel about this seems not to matter. I’d hoped to be free of this life by the age of 37-38 but I’m now 39, and closing in on 40 fast! So sometime soon I’ve got a big decision to make that will have ramifications either way; do what I desire most of all before it’s too late or stay around for others, only because I’m obliged to put them first. I know what I want with absolute certainty but I guess whether I can or not is another question altogether, even though at the end of the day it isn’t anyone else’s choice to make but mine. So I feel I’m in a damned if I do damned if I don’t situation, as are they for either way they’re gonna pay dearly. But enough for now…
The last sentence of your comment sounds like a piece to a rap song
Haha, what sentence from what comment? O.o