finally made up my mind.

when I read about the war on drugs and then come here… makes me sad(der). So much pain that can be numbed with a toke of that good ole’ f*** it but never will be because getting high is a crime. I wrote once,

“what would I be doing if I weren’t getting high?
I’d probably be dead, depression is so sly…”

If I didn’t start toking, I’d be right where guys are, getting ready to punch my own ticket. Give yourself a chance to see your life differently before you go: get high. I didn’t have a reason to exist before (life isn’t enjoyable) but drugs gave me a reason to get up everyday. I’m psychologically addicted but alive. It’s like freezing your diseased body until such a time that a cure has been discovered for what ails. The one thing I’m confident in is that one day, things will change drastically. I just have to stay alive and be patient.