Finding calm in the details

  September 4th, 2011 by Mama Hen

Last night I started making a list of what I needed and wanted to do before my transition (i don’t like calling it suicide or death or whatever, I prefer to think of it as a transfer from life to eternal life). Yes, I am a Christian and I believe that after this life I will live in eternity with God. I don’t care what others believe or don’t believe about that–but for me it’s one piece of hope. Anyhoo–I started making this list and I found such calmness in the process. I guess it’s maybe one of the last pieces of control I still have. I’ve set a date, started getting personal and professional affairs in order, and making any arrangements for my house, cat, etc. Honestly, I don’t know if I’ll go through with my date but just having it makes me feel better. Does anyone understand that? Calm before the storm? I don’t know but whatever–I’ll take it.

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