so till about two and a half months ago i was the most normal happy girl with a good life in general. My boyfriend then broke up with me coz i argued too much and he had warned me about it several times but i guess i just took him for granted and neva expected him to really end things.. We only dated for six months but those were the happiest ive eva been..ive had a few screwed up relationships before nd wen i met him he made me feel that all the jerks before were worth goin thru to meet him…he was an amazing loving boyfriend..he mad me a better person…since weve broken up i havent smiled genuinely even once…ive begged and pleaded of him to give us one more chance but he said he doesnt love me anymore and wen we spoke for the last time time day before yesterday he told me that i was being pathetic and i need to pik myself up and move on… but i cant …ive tried evrything fo the last 8 weeks but ive never been in a darker place in life…my parents are sick of telling me to snap out of it…theyve been really supportive but i dont blame them for gettin annoyed …my sister is getting married in a few months and i feel terrible coz i cant be happy for her…i cant be happy for anyone..seeing two people happy together makes me break down…ive become a horrible selfish human being and i hate being like this..i cant think of any other way but to end myself..i know its supposed to pass and il find someone else and all of that but i dont want anyone else…he was perfect..ive gone on a few dates nd all that i think of wen i am on those dates is how i wish it was him..he gave me the happiest six months of my life nd i would rather die with those memories than live in this depression…i know i will be hurting alot of people but i am anyway hurting them now…i dont want to talk to my friends about anything coz they jus say ur worth much more nd get over him but i know that is not possible…he was my lease on a new happy life nd its just gone away so quickly i feel lifeless..ive decided to drink a decent amount of alcohol and hang myself tom nite…i am goin to cal and message him one last time tom and tell him how much i miss him..if by any miracle he responds il be fine nd i hope someone replies here so i will let them know…if not i really hope at least my suicide is successful otherwise things will get worse if that is even possible…if anyone can guide me on how to hang myself properly i would really appreciate it…i really need this peace…cant go on with this hurt and hurting everyone else so much…
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i dont know what to say that would make u feel beter but hang on there might not be another guy like him but ther r other guys
I dont know if that is ever possible…trust me im sobbing while im typing this and i dont want to kill myself but this pain is unbearable and i hate the person i have become …ive tried explaing this to him but i just dont think he undersatnds how much im hurtin and how desperately i want one more chance to make him happy…
Hi,
I just came across this site, while looking for teaching resources for suicide prevention.
I am a teacher in Ireland.
When I read your post I had to create an account and reply.
Basically I am writing to beg you not to take your own life.
I know its hard when your heartbroken. Did you tell anyone about your suicidal thoughts, because if you do, I am sure they can tell you who to go to for help.
It is possible to end the pain with time. Trust me. I’ve been dumped, cheated on, and lost loved one’s. Time does heal. But you may need more than time- you may need someone to talk to- someone who knows what they’re talking about.
Please talk to someone. Tell them your true feelings.
Nobody wants to loose you.
Stay with us. xx
I dont have the guts to tell anyone what im planning to do…i was the kind of girl who was happy, picked myself up from bad phases of life and looked forward and always kept the faith…i also know how stupid it soinds to want to kill myself over a guy who came into my life 9 months bak…but the pain is just too much to handle…i feel like a burden to my family and friends and i know they will be hurt but at least they will know i am peaceful…i jus sent him a msg sayin ” i miss you soooo much…never felt more rejected or weak or worthless in my life…am the saddest i could possibly imagine myself to be…i wish ud understand how much u mean to me and how badly i wanna turn bak time and do things differently…i miss you all the time..’… ive been heart broken before but ive neva known of anyone who doesnt feel anything when someone is pleading of them to….im really scared but am looking forward to tonight in a strange and dark way….this is the most pain ive evr felt…
Have you talked to a doctor about how you feel?
No matter how “perfect” he is, if he doesn’t feel the urge, feel touched and at least want to consider coming back to you,..then maybe he’s not meant to be with you. No matter how “perfect’ our imagery is..because truthfully, we’re still living 90% in this Real, and LIMITED physical world anyway, not in our “perfect Anything is possible” dream-world.
Have you ever considered this possibility?
And so you’re able to move on and do what lost tears said above?
think about it..for your own good.
Niki what’s your method?
And where the fuck you been? you ok? pot that spot?
Ive just been lifeless for the past two months…i dont have the will to do anything…i dont know if i want to be in a world where people just think its ok to destroy someone elses life and go on with theirs…i wouldnt even do dat to my worst enemy…ive had another sleepless night nd i dont know when or how it will stop..im hurting tooo bad and hurting too many people…i went to a doctor about a month ago….he gave me some pills but dont really think they worked…im pretty sure im wayy beyond help..
im going to a hypnotherapist tomorrow who also does past life regression…i got everything ready for tonight…but while writing the notes to my parents and sister i just couldnt even imagine what they would go through evn tho i am hurting them now…i hope i get some answers tomorrow that might make me change my mind..anyone who knows anyhting about this stuff please let me know
I went to one hypnotherapy session and it was interesting… in that it opened up my eyes to how much your subconscious can bury. But it was too expensive and I get the feeling it would take a few sessions to get something concrete.
Hanging is really difficult. You have to tie the noose perfectly so it breaks your neck, otherwise you will be dangling for a while, slowly choking to death.
There will be other guys. Really, just give it a chance.
Ive reached the end of my line…tried evrything but I am just gettin worse and worse…Maybe this is my destiny ..I am of no use to anyone or to myself..my family is fed up with me being so depressed…I know its selfish to kill myself but Il be doing everyone a favour..I havent gotten out of my room in I cant even remember how many days and I dont have the will to …Dont really c the point in living anymore…The one person that I wanted to bulid a life with is not there anymore and I just dont c it happening with anyone else ever…Ive been with giys before but this was just very different..I cant explain..Please dont try to talk me out of it..just help me please..I need to hang myself but it has to be successful…I am thinking of drinking a decent amount of vodka and smoking a joint and taking whatever pills I can find around the house and then hanging myself…It should work rite then..??