I am alone, and want to die. I am sick of this feeling, and everything that goes with it. I am well aware this is all my own doing. I make a bad friend, family member, and an even worse husband. Im a horrable human being. I am not being too hard on myself. Its just time to face facts. Because i cant pretend to be something im not anymore. Its that simple. Ive lost all but 2 of those who are most dear to me, and im probably loseing one of them. And i cant blame. Id walk away from me too. Ive done absolutely horrable things in my life. Now i must endure if i can till the last one dies so i may die as well. Its the only decent thing ive done. I dont want heaven or hell, simple nonexsitance would be perfect. I always though everything would turn out diffrent. I had good intentions, but that wasnt near enough. I hate people…..i truly do. But i hate my self most of all. I hope this ends soon.
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its the best when you cry out and no one cares or hears- wishing for death to end the pain
Everyone makes mistakes, you have the opportunity to make things right. Get of your arse and make them good! Your so very lucky you still have those two people around you, many on here have nothing and no one. You’ve got a chance! Take it, grab it with both hands and make good your mistakes x