Why can’t I just fit in

it’s their loss. I wish that my brother (same grade as you) were so gifted with words and could express himself as you do instead of being zombified by games/tv.

The best way that I can describe school is as a sandbox. You’re place into this sandbox for X amount of years and you have no control over who else is in the sandbox with you. The primary goals are education and indoctrination. You get your daily doses of ABC’s and 123’s, all while learning how to be like everyone else. They stamp out any bit of individuality to make you as dull as the rest. That’s why when someone like you pops up, the rest say “hey, he’s not submitting to the indoctrination; GET HIM!” You’re not made to conform; you’re made to rule. The people that keep you down, the ones so willing to follow the herd, are the middle managers of the world. They have no real power and the frustration that comes from this realization makes them act out against anything and everything. You’re an easy target because you’re alone and different.

don’t take it personally, take it as a compliment to your character. You’re not like all the other mouth breathing monkeys who haven’t even formed their own opinions yet. I promise that life after adolescence opens up completely. There are so many different people with different opinions in the world; just because the people in your life right now are not good for you doesn’t mean that you’re wrong; it’s just an incompatibility.

Simply put, it’s apples and oranges. You’re an apple in a sandbox filled with oranges. You won’t be there forever though. Living under the thumb of parents/teachers/bullies is tough since there’s no room to grow, but keep your head up. Realize that the kids at your school try to bring you down because you’re so far above them. And unfortunately, they won’t change just yet. They haven’t learned(some never do) to treat everyone in the same way that they themselves would like to be treated.

better yourself, it’s all you can do right now. Focus on bettering yourself, not just in school, but in life. The way to better yourself in life is in how you react to others’ actions. Don’t simply turn the other cheek; think of something clever to say the next time someone gets on you. Being passive aggressive always works for me. When someone is raging at you, smile and tell them that you love ’em; it will piss them off even more. That’s their problem, their anger, their rage. Don’t take their rage home with you and think it’s your own; they’re the ones with the problem.

keep posting your thoughts here as this place can give hope. The world isn’t filled with the assholes that plague our every day lives. There are so damn good people out there that you’ll meet, love and want to die for.

think about this: “people are no good unless they want the same thing you want”. They treat you like you’re nothing/worthless because you’re not like them in whatever superficial way that they claim. On the flip side of that is the fact that, at the same time, they’re worthless to you. It’s obvious they have nothing positive to offer you by the way they act and that’s just fine. It’s every persons right to pick and choose who they want to be around. So go out and pick your friends, whether they be online (be careful with that; predators etc) or offline.

fun fact: the world population is supposed to be 7 billion by late October. Think of all the people in the world for you to pick and choose from to be your friend. Once you’re free to live your life, that’s when the fun begins. All of this right now, school, homework, bullying is the pre-game. Don’t take it too; real living is waiting for you.