Lost and alone

I feel so lost. Idnt know wat to do anymore. Evryday iwakeup go go to to school and force myself to smile wen all ireally wana do is jst stay in bed and cry. Lately its gotten harder to pretend im ok. Ijust feel so sad and angry and useless. Icant get through a skool day without having to run into a stall to cry and cut myself and even that dsnt help much. Ijust dnt know how to deal wit my feelings of hurt anger and pain anymor i feel so alone. I hav people that call themselves my friends but they dnt notice anything and if they do they chose to ignore it. Ihav no one who understands me ijust cnt take it anymor ihate how ifeel its either anger and sadness or just this empty feeling of worthlessness im tired of evrything of all the shit in my lyf im tired of feeling lyk im trash im tired of trying ifeel lyk thers no poiint in living a lyf lyk this im just a waste of oxygen thought bout suicide alot but iwant a way that that leaves no chance of survival and dnt kno wat that is yet