I sound so ignorant, complaining about how I need to die, how I can’t carry on living a life that will just be full of misery, don’t say you know it won’t. Cause It will, I can’t keep a friend, I’m bullied all the time. That’s right I’m just 13, and don’t say that I’m having a teenage drama, I’ve had it since primary, in primary I would just sit on the bench, being a loner. Life’s too hard for me, I have no reason to live anymore, so why can’t I end it? Because I’m afraid, what if my family forgets me, what if when I die no one cares. Why would they care? If I died, I would leave a letter to everyone in my family, send an email to all my friends, telling them I’m sorry. I would kill myself by going into the medicine cupboard and taking every drug in there, then go to sleep, hoping not to ever wake up. Would it work? I have it all planned, but I’m being held back, there must be a small part of me that wants to live, right? So many questions that you’ll never be able to answer, how tragic.
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everyone wants to live, ask anyone – if you could change the issues in life would you stay, and yes is the answer, if you had the money you need, the friends you need, the love you need, the support you need, whatever it is that is causing a problem, if those things could be fixed, then people would choose to live. Some people, they have stuff that can’t be fixed, and some have stuff they dont believe can be fixed, and some, have stuff that just needs time to fix. I believe time will fix yours.
You have got to stick it out – at 13 yrs old, things are rough, school, family, changes with yourself and how you see the world, that is a hard age to be, but you won’t always be stuck in this place. You will get out of school, you will make friends, friends that you will keep ….. you’ll get there, you will, you just have to keep going at it for now, which sucks, and life is gonna be hard for a bit, but, you will get there.
when you’re dead, there’s nothing left of you to feel regret. The last thing you feel is the pain of whichever method you choose to end yourself. What if your family forgets you? So? your goal seems to be suicide so what does it matter what happens afterward? Why even think about other peoples hypothetical pain if you’re so surrounded by misery? Because 13 is too young an age to make a rational decision about your mortality.
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you did not get to tell us what was troubling you. I would say that regardless of how you view it, we can give you, the right assessment and that could help you look things with perspective. Let us know
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It probably wouldn’t work. Your parents would find you, word would get out and people would most probably stare at you, making you look even more like the odd one out. I honestly don’t know how to solve your problems (i’m here, too, aren’t i…) but if i were you i’d latch on to whomever i could get a hold on who was of my own age. Find someone you can trust, and who you can talk to. And the only way to do that, is to make first contact. There’s bound to be at least one other who feels like you do. And if you fail to keep this person, then… All i can say is i got through those days reading.