You say that you’re in control
You say that you are
I can’t think of a time
When you looked less alive
You said, “Wait until light, my dear”
Just wait until light
One more day will go by
Maybe today you should try
Look past the mirror and find
Look past the mirror
That there’s something inside
Something more to your life
My words won’t heal you now
My words won’t heal
It is you who decides
It is you who decides
This burden’s not a heavy one
But I assure you, it’s present
This burden’s not a heavy one
I assure you
Believe that you are just fine
Believe that you are
You’ll feel so alive
You’ll feel so alive
Be what you are now (be what you are)
Be what you are
Do not keep it inside
That hate will not subside
Be what you are now (be what you are)
Be what you are
Do not keep it inside
That hate will not subside
It is you who decides
It is you who decides
Hello, I’m new here. I’ll post my story another time. Instead, this is “Control” by Alexisonfire. Not the entire lyric but the gist of it. This song helps me through some tough times. Find it on youtube if you want. Excellent tune.
I’m here to talk if anybody needs it, every post I read makes my problems seem petty.
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Everybody here thinks their problems are petty.
That’s why they post here instead of talking to other people ha.
At least that’s the way it is for me.
Maybe embarrassment/fear has something to do with it also though,
or not having anyone else to talk to.
But if you ever need to talk, give me a shout
@beaGhost:
Speak for yourself.
@tyrant:
Hello and welcome.
Not speaking for anyone else!
Angry? Sorry. I didn’t mean it in a rude way.
Thank you, I will.
I think it just nobody in my life wants to really hear what I’ve got to say. Read this shard of my brain if you wish.
When I was in grade 2 I say to my buddy, “I don’t believe in god”. So I’m in a catholic school, and he rats on me to the teacher. I get pulled aside, asked if the rumours are true. I said “Yes, I did say that” And the reply from the teacher is “Well I don’t think you belong here”.
I eventually went to the public school in grade 6. The teacher had a daughter, crushed by the school bus, then wasn’t a teacher anymore. To his credit he was right though. I sure as fuck didn’t belong there.
Anyways, I don’t believe in voodoo. But that’s not true for everybody, including the people I live with. I disturb them enough when I say things like. “Heaven is just a tactic to keep the masses from revolting” So suicide is a rather taboo for me to discuss with them.
Uroboros, a man named Wesker ring any bells? Sun glasses all night long, black trench coat and super inflated ego?
Don’t fight folks…
Nope. No bells being rung here. Baha I leave the fighting to the trolls and the people who lack maturity.
Hmm resident evil 5, it has a monster uses tentacles to pull in dead bodies and uses their flesh to grow, sprays blood all over. It’s size is directly based on how many bodies it has consumed. Scary stuff. Kind of reminds me of this site.
I should try to sleep
BeaGhost, you should smile more often. I’m sure it suits you.
Oh yeah now I remember! I’ve got the game. Silly me. Although I didn’t get the name Uroboros from it.
This is a MAD good song
That’s what people say to me all the time haha. “you’re smile is beautiful”. Hard to smile these days though.
I wasn’t angry/fighting haha.
I don’t believe in god either, but all of my friends do. They keep trying to convince me to go to church with them, pray with them, etc.. I’m right with you.
Not my favorite song by them (happiness by the kilowatt or waterwings absorber poolside fashion faux pas get that distinction), but every song off their first three albums speak to me in a big way. If you like aof read the euphio question by Kurt Vonnegut jr. It’s the short story happiness by the kilowatt is based off of. Awesome story IMO, it’s got a great meaning and it’s written fantastically.
Waterwings *and other poolside fashion faux pas, not absorber, in case anyone wanted to check it out haha
Waterwings is probably one of their best songs.
I didn’t know that about the Happiness by the Kilowatt. I’ve been told I would like his novels before, namely Slaughterhouse Five. I will definitely have to pick up some new books.
Also this is my proxy text. Lets see how this works.
Haha, I beat you stupid wordpress. And I’m stoned.
What other canadian music are you into. I like Cancer Bats, Tragically Hip, Holly Springs Disaster, umm a bunch of others.
Anything except Nickleback, I saw a picture, Stephen Harper shaking hands with Chad Kroeger, made me hate them both even more.