Desperate…

I need help, some sort of guidance, some sort of hope… I’ve been sad for so long that I don’t know how to be happy. I don’t want to wake up and face the world – I hate it.  The constant crying and hopelessness.  Yes I’ve been to counseling, yes I’ve had the meds and yes I’ve been to the crazy house.  Nothing sticks.  Always go back to the sadness.  It truly it not worth feeling like this… not only to myself but to others either.  No one wants to be around me and I don’t blame them.  Who would want to be around such a depressing individual.  I just can’t get out, tired of faking and I’m not doing a very good job of that either