Failure. It hurts to think that even we did the best we can, we still failed with what we tend to aspire. Sometimes, it is just so hopeless to be in the position you are stuck—whether it is about career or relationship. Loneliness and despair just tend to mingle with our fate. I know it sounds so melodramatic, but it seems that no matter how much I tried, my potentials were not even considered. There are days that I just want to end it. Tired of all the disappointments. I wish that all these bad feelings will go away. It is also so hard to move on after experiencing disappointments. Today, I went to a group interview… I was so nervous because I haven’t experienced it and so it felt that I sucked. Big time. I felt that maybe it is not really meant to be, that is what my mind said, but it does hurt. I felt that I did not shine at all, I was probably just a wall paper. I am a very shy person, but I went to this interview even though I’m not comfortable talking to people, I still did the best I can. Maybe, if I was given a chance for another round of interview one-on-one maybe they could see my potentials. Sucks that after graduating with a degree that I’m not even practicing it, it is really hard to get a job. The thing is, it is not even related to what I graduated with, and I still did not get it… Now, I am stuck at a job that did not really care about their employees. I am tired of it, that is why I keep looking for a better one. It is almost midnight and I haven’t heard from them– so I gave up. I just wish that I could just move on that easily.
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That doesn’t sound to pleasant as far as working conditions go, but maybe before the next interview you could do something that makes you feel confident, maybe splurging on some new clothing item, or what not. But, perhaps something of that nature could make you feel a bit more confident going in. I’m pretty bad with people, so I know the restrictions coming from that. Sorry if that wasn’t much help. Good luck with everything! Try and keep your head up.
Thank you. I tried to think in a positive way. It is just that my pride and ego got hurt from time to time. It is a very different form of an interview but a good learning experience. I will try to keep my head up and just look for better opportunities. Thank you again.
“Failure. It hurts to think that even we did the best we can, we still failed with what we tend to aspire. Sometimes, it is just so hopeless to be in the position you are stuck—whether it is about career or relationship. Loneliness and despair just tend to mingle with our fate. ”
I agree and understand every word of what that says. ^^^
I understand feeling stuck, believe me and the failure. I wish moving on were easier as well, even though I am sure we may be referring to different things.
I hope for the both of us though, we do find a breakthrough. We just have to keep trying I suppose.
my counciler told me dont try to stop feeling. i dont know what she ment sometimes i wish there was a puase button on emotions