I’m 16 years young.
I’ve had a bad childhood, and it seems that every year, everything gets worse.
I’ve attempted suicide twice.
Once, because a guy that I fell in love with treated me like dirt, and he went through two months without talking to me. He acted like everything was supposed to be okay. I didn’t hear a word from him.
I finally got so depressed, that I took all of my dad’s medication..
I was then sent to a therapist and was prescribed.. what’s the medicine called.. LexaPro.
The 2nd time, was because of the same guy, but also from things that I have done and I regret, and I couldn’t do it anymore.
I then took all of my LexaPro that I had, around 69 to 71 pills.
I was rushed to the emergency room, and I had a seizure.
I was then placed into an adolescent facility.
I was there for a week, and then was able to come home..
I’m now on Lamental and Zoloft..
But.. here lately.. I’ve been feeling distant from everyone.
The suicidal thoughts are back, and I’m scared there’s going to be a third time.
I don’t want to tell my friends and family, because I don’t want them worrying.
But, I feel as if I have no one to turn to or talk to.
I push everyone away.. I sleep all the time. I do absolutely nothing.
I hardly hang out with my friends anymore.
I feel so.. Alone..
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Same here… Useless comment I know… But still.
Eh. It’s alright.
We’ll stick together.
My name’s Sarah.
I am James. Relationships can be… very hard. We all know that. But in the end, they do not reflect anything about us personally. It is his loss, not yours.
Yeah. I know.
But bleh. I’m over him now. But at the time, it hurt me really bad.
If you are over him now, what do you think brings you down the most in life?
Hi, Sarah. I’m about your age, though have never attempted suicide before. But there doesn’t go one day where I don’t think about it. I know exactly how you feel, alone.
Please do not do something like this over a guy…if he hurt you and doesn’t treat you well he obviously doesn’t deserve you. Bad relationships happen, but you must get over that.
In your second attempt, did someone find you?
Hey,
I’ve attempted 12 times so far, and I wanna go away too…i refuse meds bc i know, im gonna make it, i know i am, but i dont wanna grow up knowing i was so lost that i had to take meds when i was 13 years old. it isnt fair that you had to and those stupid people shouldve thought about it a little bit. counseling doesnt help either. like they undrstand -.- . all they do is treat you like a child . like you dont know what you’re doing and why and all that. when really, they dont even know whats going on. they dont know shit so its stupid for them to say they understand when they havent witnessed more than 10 minutes of your life. if you wanna talk to me sometime its cool. (: im here for you, you arent alone.
ohh,
and,
i attempted over a useless guy, too.
(: