the one man who would’ve cared about me was my dad and hes not here anymore. every relationship i’ve had has just turned to shit cuz i cant get a damn decent boyfriend. im so tired of being used and thrown away. i can never let myself even like someone again, let alone love. ever. cuz i know exacty how it will end. im a fuckin saint in my relationships, according to other men who i’ve talked to about it. and i know i have cuz i never fuckin ask for anything or expect shit and im so sick of getting shit on for it. thats another reasob why i want to kill myself. i cant fuckin trust anyone or love anyone so why live.
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you can trust me, haha
i’m the same way.
I’ve been used up and tossed out by so many guys because I put so much of my trust in them, I just want to be wanted. The only way I feel good about myself is when other people feel good about me.
But people are monsters. Even people you don’t know can take advantage of you and ruin you for everyone else.
hell i know thats right. fuck it. its not worth it when i just get fucked over every time u try to treat someone good. fuck it. if they dont wanna be treated good right now i cant fuckin wait til theyre 50 and they realized what the fuck they lost
But there will be someone for you eventually. When you learn to respect yourself and you’re not entering into a relationship for the wrong things or at the wrong time for you, then people will want to be with you for the right reasons.
I’ve seen it happen before, and it’s amazing. But I messed it up of course.
well u know… if it doesnt work out then it doesnt work out, and you move on, no need to hold in that kind of negavity. You live and you learn, now that you’re more wise …. you’ll be more careful next time … i dOn’t knOow… i listening to this song trying to get the words down… wana see?
alright.. it’s cool then, whAtevEr … i don’t care
i will never be in a relationship again. im not interested anymore. i gave up. its not worth the bullshit especially when i know how theyll act and how itll end
that’s.. kind of a good thing, learning and being an independent woman … it’s a good evolutionary step for one’s being
Yeah x-boy’s right, it’s a good idea to not be in a relationship until you know yourself better, and can trust yourself so you know when someone’s playing you, or planning on using you.
i dont think theres anything to know about myself. im not concerned with that. theres nothing special about me that i want to know. im just a worthless piece of trash. what is there to want to know?
ooooo there’s alot to know, alot of special things about you … that has yet to be discovered …
you just… gota find it within you, and give the goodness in you an opportunity …
i guess … guidance is the key
i just really dont care. there is no ‘goodness’ in me to find. i need to just kill myself and go back to hell where i belong. im a worthless piece of shit without a soul. theres nothing special here
wana go on a journey with me or what, where are you from? if you don’t mind me asking
im from US, california
here’s my email bnb039 @ yahoo . com
i have to go for now, cya
You are not worthless. You don’t deserve to be dead. You’re just heartbroken. I’ve learned that being attracted to the wrong type of people you keep getting the same frustrating result. Maybe you go for the wrong type of guy….
Think @kno is onto something here… did these guys treat you right, from the start? I’m sorry you’ve been made to feel like a piece of shit. Take some time out, but don’t give up on people, man or woman, because there’s a lot of good ones out there so don’t close yourself off. But first work on self-respect huh?
nope yo probably don’t deserve a good man if you are going to always get with the ones that treat you horribly… the type of partner we get often reflects how we feel about ourselves…
i dot know they’re bad until after i’ve spent more time around them and they’ve all been the same so i just figured they all act like that because i’ve seen so much of it. i dont deserve a good man/they dont exist i guess. except for in movies. thats why girls cry when they watch movies is because they wish so bad that they could see men like that in real life but nobody does. and i HAVE given up on it all because this shit is so fuckin pointless. i dont even plan on living much longer let alone try to get good man. i cant trust anyone and i will never open my heart (if i even have a heart or soul) to anyone ever again.
i give up