I don’t know if it’s a moment of weakness or what but today I reached out and told a trusted person that I am depressed and suicidal. I asked for help and for a referral to a therapist. Part of me wants help, part of me still wants to die. Telling this person wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be though I do worry about how me might perceive me from now on. I guess I can’t control that, right?
I don’t know what will happen from here. Though I have the name of a therapist I’m not sure I will make the call. I’m so overwhelmed. #rambling
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Oh gawd, I just remembered I’m seeing a therapist tomorrow! I’ve got the jitters.
It is best to sit on it for a while, let the whole thing settle.
It is best to look at the risk factors for suicide
Chances are the therapest will focus on the risk factors.
Id Est, one of the risk factors is making a suicide plan
So the theripest will ask you “Have you ever planned a suicide?”
From the questiong they will determinate your risk of suicide.
If your risk is low then not much will be done…but…if your risk is high you will be forced in to a phychiatric ward.
If I was you I would either
1 – Not call the therapist, if my freind were to come around I would say “Things are improving so fast that I do not need a therapist, telling you vented a lot of my suicidal thoughts”
2 – Or go to the therapiest and play it cool, keep it low risk, if they asked you if you made a plan the answer is no.
Oh and do not deny something they already know, they already know you are suicidal so saying no to that will increase their suspisons.
@Umbra_Uroboros – Have you, my perants do not know about my suicide, I kept it a total secret 😀
How did it all began, did someone find out?
@Biscuit of Death – It’s a long story and it’s kinda hard to explain.
@Umbra_Uroboros – Go on tell me, make a long story short.
@Biscuit of Death – I emailed you.
@mama-hen: well done, first step! Don’t worry how that person now thinks of you, they helped, that’s a good hint all is ok!
Do make that phone call, thats step two, it gets easier after that, you kinda get used t walking. Or if you cannot do it (for some traumatized people it’s difficult to make phone calls) ask this person to do it for you or with you, or ask someone else.
Just don’t stop now, keep going in the right direction. And (no offense please) ignore biscuits list of advice, be as honest as you can, how can a doctor/counsellor help you unless you are honest? Yy
I don’t want to take the chance that a therapist will try to EOD me. I think I was wrong to ask for a therapist referral. Stupid me.
I think it’s very interesting that you describe reaching out for help as ‘a moment of weakness’. Sounds like you have been conditioned to view asking for help as a weakness, as have I. That’s bullshit, it doesn’t mean you’re weak, it just means you are part of a society, and giving help and excepting help from others is what a society (ideally) is about, it’s not a one way street. It took a lot of work to re-train my mind and recognise how destructive and illogical it is to view traits which are inherently humanistic as ‘weak’.
Therapists are not stupid and they won’t expect you tell them EVERYTHING in the first session. So it would be good to go and just have a chat, you are in control of how much or little you say.
Biscuit is wrong. They can’t force you into a mental ward.
Anyway, I agree with one_day. Society is about helping each other, not about everyone going it alone.
Sometimes therapy can disappoint you, but all that means is maybe you had a bad session or maybe you need another therapist.
Sometimes friends are the best therapists.
Some sound advice here people. Thank you x