i cant stand this shit. this is ridiculous. i eat when im not hungry cuz it makes me ‘feel better’ which is so fuckin stupid. im know im fuckin ugly even though people tell me im beautiful. its usually men and i know they only have one goal so i dont fall for that shit anymore. i hate my skin color, my hair, my chest, my stomach, everything. i hate it. i dont know why god made me if i have such an ugly useless body. im 5’7″ 135lbs and not in shape so i look really bad and i dont know why men are always looking at me when i look like shit. they always say im so beautiful but i just dont see it. i just hate this disgusting body. i just want to cut myself all over. i hate this piece of shit that everybody claims is so fuckin beautiful and sexy yet they cant respect me for 5 mins.
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i just wanna fuckin cut my body all over. i cant stand this shit i see in the mirror every day. fuckin ugly
and people say god gives u the gift of a beautiful human body this and that but mine is just useless trash
I don’t think it’s bad to eat when you’re not hungry (as long as it’s not in excess…) food is one of the simple pleasures we have.
It’s hard to believe anyone is that ugly. I’ve spent the last week in emergency ward of hospital and seen all sorts, and even then very few I would call ugly (guesome, though…) so at this point, I’m wondering if something was done to your body that makes you hate it so much and distorts your perception of it so violently. If you don’t mind me asking.
next time you are going to complain about how ugly you are at least post of pic… are you the real life version of meg from family guy?
I wonder if you have body dysmorphic disorder. It where these beautiful women hate themselves based upon their looks. They can be drop dead gorgeous but think themselves ugly. By your self description your probably stunning. If guys think your beautiful they’re not lying(about that at least I will take no responsibility for anything else that flies out of a guys mouth) I’m sure your beautiful rather you see it or not.
@kno, don’t you, and many others on this site, have the same thing? I’ve seen pics of you, you’re not ugly at all.
Not ugly and attractive are 2 different things and body dysmorphic disorder is more than confidence issues. Me saying I’m fat with acne is a fact(I’m 350 lbs with bumps on my face) whether or not it is attractive is opinion(based upon the women I encounter they don’t see it as attractive either.) However someone with visually flawless skin with a perfect shape and weight who sees an obese crypt keeper with pizza for skin in the mirror is literally incapable of seeing themselves as they are. I and others may have a negative view on ourselves but not all of us have one that is wholly inaccurate.
@kno I think it’s the same thing because you would say things like ‘I am so unattractive that nobody would ever consider dating me’ and based on the pics I’ve seen, I think that’s a massive presumption. Me, I find physical attractiveness really hard to guage until I get to know someone. Most people are pretty much ‘meh’ when I first meet them, and become more attractive as I get to know them better.
Maybe the person with visually flawless skin can’t see their own beauty because they are too obsessed with their crooked nose. Everyone’s got their own personal hangups that you tend to blow out of proportion.
@miranda still haven’t heard from you. What happened to make you hate your physical body so much? Ah well… I hope you can start focusing on the inner person a bit more… sounds cheesy but physicality is often just so irrelevant.
Ok if you research the disorder you’d see there is difference mainly with how off the view of oneself is from reality. The thing is in my heart of hearts I don’t think I’m ugly. I think I’m unattractive. Like I don’t get noticed.. And I don’t say things like “I am so unattractive that nobody “would” ever consider dating me” its more like “I am so unattractive that nobody “does” ever consider dating me” like when I ask girls out they act as if I’m crazy for asking. Even if I’ve known them for some time we are both single and enjoy each other’s company. I can think of 2 such girls I got the cold shoulder from this month. There is something about me inherently unattractive I’m sure nervousness has some role in my troubles. I know should try to lose weight but in my last week of life that’s a moot point. As I look now it is more difficult for me to get a gf than the average person and my physical appearance plays a role. For me to have bdd I would have to look like usher and think I look like I do… If you think I look like usher…. Whens the next time your coming to the states? Lol
Sorry miranda I feel like I hijacked the thread
thanks everyone for your input. im just really disgusted in myself in a lot of ways. i hate my skin color and my stupid fuckin hair. i CANT STAND my chest and it makes me sick to see girls that actually fill their fuckin bras. that alone makes me want to kill myself. i dont know why i even exist if im so fuckin disgusting. i cant believe men when they tell me im beautiful because they eventually treat me like shit so i cant be THAT awesome or they would actually give half a damn. i just get so fuckin mad at myself when i eat, it makes me blood boil. i want surgery on my face and body sculpting and implants because i need SO much fuckin work on this piece of shit that ‘god gave me’
Yea you probably have body dysmorphic disorder. You’re probably drop dead gorgeous and think being mistreated with having anything with you and your looks. Instead you have probably dealt with douche bags and/or haven’t been guarded as you should’ve been with your heart. I don’t need to see you to know you’re adorable. I also know enough about the disorder (wikipedia) to know that there is nothing I can say to change your mind. There’s nothing anyone can say lovely. I wish I could help you love yourself. I kind of want to see a picture of you… I know you’re gorgeous I just wanted a picture of an angel.
My email if you ever want to talk my email is kno11987@hotmail.com
im not an angel. im a piece of worthles trash. i cant be fixed. thats why no one will ever realy want me. they all know im worthless. i deserve it anyway. thats another thing that makes me want to cut myself and lay down and did because i cant stand any more shit from anyone.
Ditch the men and give women a chance. Just sayin’. Let me just say I already think you’re beautiful. Not lying. I mean it.
Don’t say that about yourself. Nobody deserves to be mistreated. I got beaten up by seven bitches a few days ago. I fought back, and I never stayed down.
one_day: what do u mean u still havent heard from me??? i dont understand
umbra, i know girls are just as mean (i lived with 2 lesbians and they really took advantage of me, long story) i would never trust a lesbian because they’re just as evil. i’ve had more experience than i ever asked for with them.
Do you want someone to love you?
its not possible
Lady, c’mon how old are you?
@miranda, I asked before and you didn’t reply… I am wondering if something specific was done to your body to make you hate it so much. If it was exploited or attacked. What is your skin colour? Do you think other people with that skin colour are ugly?
@kno, I’m sure it’s your lack of self esteem that gets in the way of girls with you. You continually re-iterate the negatives about yourself, and it’s tiring trying to change your (very skewed) perspective. That old cliche, ‘you can’t love anyone until you love yourself’ what do you know, it’s actually true
More thread jacking.I actually do like my self I just hate my life and living. I can see where YOU would say I see a skewed view of my looks. For what ever reason you ignored when I talked about my job I hate, my financial situation, my social anxiety you picked up on my looks as a point of contention. In you’re opinion I don’t look that bad. As if you were expecting to see an ogre when you saw my pics and when you didn’t you acted like what’s the problem. Its also comes off as if you’re trivializing my depression because “I don’t look that bad” so the discussions get centered there I talk about from my experience its difficult to get a girl. You act as if I’m making it up and I get to the point where I’m arguing against my looks. I’m sure my self esteem has a lot to do with my girl issues. However even if I was the most attractive man on earth I would still want to shoot myself because of every thing else. And despite that rant I very much appreciate the fact that you care because like many on this board there aren’t a lot of people who do.
one_day: sorry i guess i had so much to read on here i forgot somehow. nothing happened to me except something i cant say here. do you have an email? its just hard to go into detail on this website.
nevermind actually. i cant talk about anything at all. its pointless
i give up
@miranda, If you want to talk I’d love to listen. you should be able to see my email next to my comment if you click on the ‘comments’ tab (because I commented on your post, so my email should be displayed) I just don’t want to post it here to minimise spam, But I will do if needs be.
@kno I will send you an email
@one_day I sent one back @miranda7 as some one who has also given up I’d say make sure you’ve exhausted every option before you fully quit. Check up on body dysmorphic disorder. Maybe if you get an idea on what your facing it’ll help. And I know you believe in god. There’s no sense in believing him to be real if your not going to use him…
@miranda honey, I haven’t heard from you and am going to bed now. I hope you email me but if not I just want to say… I;m not going to try to convince you that you’re physically beautiful, because it’s totally fucking irrelevent because it’s not about looks, you just hate your body. You could look like a supermodel (and you probably do) and you would still hate your body. And maybe if you address the reasons, you could learn to stop hating your body…