among the many people who joined SP. There was life sucks thin you die (still here and well) blackqwerty (deceased? Was an asshole but had a brain problem) jamiejajamie (whom is well and I text her every day) and about 5 others but there’s always new people now who come say they will die and do it and that’s it… This is for coping with suicide not for last regards. Has anyone read the actual original posters and how they must have been uncomfortable about the deed of typing up a story of suicide?
Nycolle!!! Why don’t you love me back!!! I am madly in love for you babe I want to hold you tight and do everything with you. I love you soooo much babe where are you??? I have a powerful void in my heart I pretty much fast to suffer and shit starve myself then eat randomly. I already fainted once last week hurt my head from the fall my brother wouldn’t even help me up. I can’t cry anymore I really want to cry because I hate life i need to mope but it’s too hard to do that fuck… Death is imminent, Rogue Shadow is still here he’s just even quieter than me after I tried to make him disappear when I choked out 59 times in a row (exaggeration I did about half that) ea h about 5-10 sseconds. Nycolle I’m madly in love with I want to hold her kiss her cuddle her sleep by her side stroke her hair as she lays on my chest watch a movie with her looking at her do a staring contest as to look at her beautiful and perfect face and how it moves slightly compared to my never changing facial feature. Cloak me now?!! Hide me from the light keep me from safety kill me I’m going crazy (with powerful logical insight due to actually listening to Rogue Shadow.) kill me stab me… Fuckyou I’m going to bed I want comments only reason I wait 10 minutes ima nock out in a minute after I take another shit whatever I ate really fucked me over ugh nasty right…
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Be cool, Bro. Live life.
Man, I miss the old SP too 🙂
I think this site has been alive for awhile. I’ve been roaming around the site since I guess the end of 2008. I registered once (maybe twice idk might of had an e-mail problem) and then posted once but then deleted the post. I then registered again back in July and finally posted and didn’t delete it.
Anyways, I do remember some people who use to post regularly and the ones you mentioned above and I do wonder what happened. I sometimes just like to think that they just don’t need to come here anymore (maybe they forgot? maybe things got better?) or they just roam around the site but don’t comment/post. It’s always nice to have a place to just vent and try to help others who are struggling. I don’t know, I welcome anyone who is willing to share their emotions.
Hi suzy im new at this i only joined the other day i have been suisidal since i was 13 so thirty years and 15 attempts later ive desided i really suck at killing myself,people would probably laugh if i told them my mum kept all my letters i suffer from ptsd and anxiety ive been well for quite a few years but in the last year i have been really bad i dont actually know how much longer i can live like this im under two drs who are trying hard but nothing seems to work for long whats your story?anyone
yeah sometimes I go straight to the last page of posts and read soe very old entries from the beginning. They’re all probably dead now 🙁 RIP the OP’s
Yeah exactly lolfailz. I always thought you were a troll lol…
Muspelham: I know right 🙁
Lolfailz: is OP mean operator or ??? Poster I always wondered. I sometimes go to that too the media of that girl who cut her wrists many times was scary. Well life sucks is still on luckily.
Hi Molly! I understand how you feel. I have Social Anxiety and I barely leave my house or interact with anyone outside of my family. I have tried many times also but I lost count and haven’t tried since last year. There are times where I wonder how long I’ll be able to deal with my anxiety or if it will ever go away. This is my post from July: http://suicideproject.org/2011/07/very-confused/
Try to take care of yourself, because I know how you’re feeling right now. =[