This will be the one and only time I visit this site, or post anything. You may comment, obviously, but I will never see your replies. This site makes me too sad to visit again.
I had a friend commit suicide two years ago yesterday, October 12th, 2009. That is the hardest thing I have ever gone through, because it is so senseless to kill yourself. Especially at such a young age, he was only 25. I know life is rough. I have thought dying would be so much easier, yet I would never commit suicide. I am happy, I am in a committed relationship, and I hope to marry this man. If that doesn’t happen, and I get my heart broken, I know there will be someone out there that will end up being the one I marry. I have family issues, so many, and so horrible, that many of you would be suprised how yours compare. Yet I power through. I look at it like this, God gave us only so much time here on Earth. Why not take what we got, live it till he takes it away? Find what makes you happy and pursue it to the fullest. Fuck all those that make you sad or angry, or bring you down. Do what you love, be happy, and live your life, because I’m telling you right now…you have NO idea what it will do to your friends and family if you kill yourself…
You all think no one cares ENOUGH, but what is enough? People walk a fine line of butting into someone’s life and showing they care. If someone gets close, ask yourself, do you get angry that they are getting too personal? If so, how can you say people don’t care when you don’t let them? Even if that’s not the case, there are people that love you, enough that it may destroy them for some time if you do what you are planning to do. Me and my friends spiraled after Kyle killed himself. I wasn’t sober for about a year. I didn’t pay any of my bills. I let myself slide into such debt and despair. And I wasn’t even his family, just a friend that loved him! I can’t IMAGINE what his family went through. His brother still isn’t ok, I know that. You are ALL loved enough to stay right here on this Earth, if not for yourselves, than for the sakes of your friends and family.
Even if you don’t like country music, listen to the song “One Day You Will” by Lady Antebellum. Wonderful lyrics, and so true. Also, the song “Innocent” by Taylor Swift is a great song. You guys, I wish I had better words to give to you, because seeing all of your posts makes me cry, and I don’t even know you. Imagine what your friends and family will feel like if you go through with these things. I care about you, even if you think no one else does….:( Please, please, Jesus PLEASE, reconsider your thoughts you guys. Live another day, laugh another time, find another to love, and love your family and friends.