that’s how I’m feeling. Â Valueless. Â Hopeless. Â I know I will never commit suicide. Â But fantasizing about it has come to be comforting. Â I hate it here. Â I want to leave my life.
I am really sorry you feel this way. Seriously, because i know what its like feeling as if you are worth nothing yet you know you wont commit suicide. :/
I know exactly what you mean by ‘it gives me comfort’. I started doing that a lot when I was in a really difficult situation, years ago, when I was burdened and stressed way beyond my strength, but had no way out as a single mum with two Little kids and absolutely no family or other support.
One big warning: because of that I became literally addicted to fantasizing about suicide, to the degree where I now have to take Naltrexone, a drug thats usually used to treat Alkoholim or opiate addiction to keep it under control.
So try and limit this, I dont want you to end up as messed up like me.
Instead maybe try doing something you used to enjoy, even if you don’t enjoy it now, exercise, hang with friends, whatever …just distract yourself.
Oh ive been obsessing for a solid year now,about 20 years ago i made 15 serious attempts but no matter how hard i tryed a stay in mental hospital and getting sectioned was all i got for my efforts.i have given up i suck at it but i cant help fantasize either my husband has no idea but goes nuts when he sees me writting on my phone thank god he hates computers or id be well busted
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I am really sorry you feel this way. Seriously, because i know what its like feeling as if you are worth nothing yet you know you wont commit suicide. :/
I know exactly what you mean by ‘it gives me comfort’. I started doing that a lot when I was in a really difficult situation, years ago, when I was burdened and stressed way beyond my strength, but had no way out as a single mum with two Little kids and absolutely no family or other support.
One big warning: because of that I became literally addicted to fantasizing about suicide, to the degree where I now have to take Naltrexone, a drug thats usually used to treat Alkoholim or opiate addiction to keep it under control.
So try and limit this, I dont want you to end up as messed up like me.
Instead maybe try doing something you used to enjoy, even if you don’t enjoy it now, exercise, hang with friends, whatever …just distract yourself.
Oh ive been obsessing for a solid year now,about 20 years ago i made 15 serious attempts but no matter how hard i tryed a stay in mental hospital and getting sectioned was all i got for my efforts.i have given up i suck at it but i cant help fantasize either my husband has no idea but goes nuts when he sees me writting on my phone thank god he hates computers or id be well busted