im just a worthless piece of shit. i found this website when i did a google search on suicide self hatred. i just dont want to live anymore. i have no purpose. god doesnt want me or need me, and probly hates me anyway. people say human life and the human body is precious but my life has no meaning and my body is certainly not precious. thats crazy. my body is an ugly piece of shit and i fuckin hate it. im so sick of how i look. i hate it. i hate my voice, personality, habits, body, thoughts, dreams, everything. i just want to cut myself into a million pieces and die. i cant even keep a job or a boyfriend so whats the point in trying anymore. im not worth the effort.
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You may not like yourself, even hate yourself, and believe me I know the feeling, but God will never stop to love you. That’s what’s being God, this God, is all about.
thanks but i just dont see it. i dont see how god would want anything to do with such worthless trash. i dont even have a heart or soul. i have no purpose.
You have a heart, it’s just hurting, and everybody has a soul. I hear you that you feel like even God can’t love you, thats you expressing your level of pain. I can go back in my diaries and show you entries saying the same thing.
I have now learned over many years and therapy, that I am not worthless, and God loves me, neither are you worthless, you just can’t see that, I get that, I really do.
Are you getting some help, therapy? How old are you if I may ask. I am 46.
i dont fuckin deserve help. im not gonna live long enough to get ‘fixed’ anyway. it won matter
Please do get help, it works. You are worth enough for me to talk to you, I care.
sorry i’ve already given up. if god doesnt even want me then how can i have a purpose? how can i even look at myself in the mirror? i just need to hurry up and cut myself for good because this bullshit life is meaningless like me.
Ok, sorry for not replying quicker, but I was driving. Now I’m back.
I have not given up on you. Tell me please, what might have made you feel that way, what happened to you.
For me, when I was a teenager, I was bullied a lot, I had few or sometimes no friends, and my parents were borderline/almost abusive/neglectful.
I felt like a worthless piece of shit and attempted once, but later learned that I was actually ok, and there were reasons why I thought I was worthless, but it was not actually true.
So what has hapoened to you, please tell me, we can stay on SP, or you can email me on geli-p at bigpond dot net dot au, for a bit more privacy.
Love A
i dont have anything important to say. i have given up. nothing matters.
I would still like to talk to you more, but maybe now you have not got it in you. Email me anytime, post here and if I am on the site I will repond. Email I will ALWAYS respond. Can you hang in one more day and talk to me tomorrow? It would mean the world to me!
i dont know what u want me to say. talking doesnt matter. i wont be here long enough to fix my problems. i cant be fixed. i dont know why u care
I care because you are a human being in pain, and I think I care especially because I see myself in you, 30 odd years ago. I soooo do believe that you are fixable, and that you are worthwhile, I just wish I could physically reach out and touch you, not just with words.
well im sorry. ur wasting ur time cuz i dont even care enough about myself so why should god or anyone else. im just waiting for the right time to die
i give up