These days, i cannot sleep and i would listen to my music of goodbyes and farewells. And i would try and not to cry, but i couldn’t hold it in. Every night has been so difficult for me. God…my life is a waste of time, and it serves no purpose, so why am i still here? There is two battles going on, an that is to not go through with it. And the other is a question of moral grounds. I am sorry for that i have let myself down, and to the people that knows me. How much pain can i really take? I am sorry , but i do not wish to be like this, or to live like this. I wish for my pain to be removed completely. Maybe i don’t understand human emotions too well, compared to some people. I don’t think i am strong minded. If i cannot be saved, then i need to think of other ways to be save myself. The only person that know me, is me! I have and always will have respect for those who have supported and helped me through my difficult times and i will not forget the amount of support that they have given me. But i don’t think any of you can help me now, and you should know that by now. I am sorry, i am sorry, i am sorry, i am sorry…i have let everyone down…i am so sorry.
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