So, due to circumstances beyond my control, coupled with my misanthropy and general disdain – and, frankly, disillusionment – towards life, I have decided to grasp control by harnessing the only means that can ease this stifling futility: suicide.
The plan?
Go to the doctors, get medication for depression (which I have; also i know what to say to get it). If it is not pushing my luck, I’ll also try for sleeping pills.
Then, during Christmas break, I’ll take a train down south to England: somewhere near the coast.
Find a picturesque, snow laden beach, with the icy water’s fingers caressing the rocks, take the whole bottle, and jump in.
What d’ya’ll think? x
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good way to go:)
Perhaps I’ll get some weights or something to help me drown quicker.
Plus, due to the pills’ effect, and the freezing water, I think it wont take too long, and I might probably be incapable of putting up too much of a struggle..
*sigh* Anyone else wish their bodies didn’t have that darn ‘survival instinct’.
Such a goddamn nuisance..
i know what you mean…if i didnt i’d just hold my breath till i died
Thank you so much for replying.. it means a lot.
I only signed up for this site – and, actually, discovered it- within the last five minutes 🙂
I’m Samantha. How’s your life? 🙂 (or, whatever, plans to leave it).
It’s really, really nice to meet you.
i only discovered this 2 days ago i like it…my life right now is less than ok but not completely terrible though i did almost kill myself multiple times never been succssesful, i’ve been to the hospital twice, i’ve cut,burned, and choked myself before i’ve been heartbroken, but i still try to promote peace to the world
do you have any advice on how NOT to get caught/fail?
my biggest fear is being caught, or failing. i can’t fail. its just not an option.
ODing on pills is a little tricky but my recomendation is just take as many as you can, and if you dont want to get caught then carefully plan on when cause you obviously dont want any body to find you just pick a time when you’ll be all by yourself for a couple hours or just do quietly at night when everyone is sleeping
As someone who failed at the OD’ing on pills, all I can say is good luck. Your plan sounds almost poetic. I’m stuck in here in the US, but I would appreciate seeing the English coastlines. I’m a winter person…
May i ask what pills you took
May i ask what pills you took
As someone who also failed…I don’t really recommend it. It’s actually proven to be the least effective way of committing suicide. Most likely, you’d just end up brain dead if found. In my case, by some screwed up miracle, I’m 100% functioning after my overdose (according to the doctors). That’s why most men are the ones who actually succeed in committing suicide – they use firearms, hang themselves, and other stuff like that. Overdosing is tricky. Right now, I do think about suicide. But God knows, I don’t wanna feel like hell like I did before. Nobody tells you that dying is painful. My body shutting down was the most painful thing I’ve ever felt. Death isn’t peaceful. It freakin’ sucks because I want to die.
It doesn’t happen quick either. It’s slower than Christmas day. I don’t recommend overdosing. I don’t know what I recommend. I’d like to say find someone you can trust to help you – but, the part of me that can relate would say to find a different way if you are determined.
Is it your goal in life, to help others kill themselves in “awesome” ways? That’s just messed up. You have no place in saying something like that.