Awful

im 14 years old and i have good friends, im not good at school and i hate my life, it isnt the friends nor the school, i hate my mother, she told me that if i think my parents dont love me i should go away from home, or they want to give me away, or theyre just waiting for me to get 18 so they dont have to care for me anymore, im always helping my parents if they want me to do something but they only see the negative side of me… i do my best at school but i only get bad grades, i still love my father but i only hate my mother… i told her what i think, i said: you dont even love me, you hate me please leave me alone. but she only yelled at me i cried all the time, shes not always like that but if im complaining that im not doing that all on purpose, she wants to hit me, she even threatened me, i never told anyone about this but now i can only think about suicide tomorrow i want to tell this a friend of me that i can tell this, but before while and after writing this text i still want to kill myself tell me what i should do now please