No matter what I try there is no way out anymore. Before I thought the answer was just to pretend that it doesn’t exist. And now? The only way out for me – straight and fast.
weed. if that isn’t your bag, default on your talents. Do something that you know you’re good at to give yourself a small boost to your self esteem. You’re drowning and that jolt will get your head above water temporarily. It’s just a short term fix though. I was depressed as fuck when I first logged on but after replying to a few posts and giving some advice, I feel calm and productive. Take your mind off your own shit and focus on someone elses. cheap tricks but it’ll get you to the next day. Maybe that next day will bring a lottery win, or a bad case of herpes
I really, really, really cannot stress how much I believe you should avoid weed if you are feeling depressed. Ignoring the fact that medical research shows that for those of us with depression it will only make it worse, losing yourself in drugs, or alcohol, will not do a thing to deal with your problems, they will only add to them.
And that’s not coming from someone who has never experienced the other side, I’ve had my fair share of problems with stuff a lot harder, and I can tell you now no good comes from escaping from things that way.
Exactly what you said, they are tricks not solutions. I wanted to actually feel better and not just for the moment. Now I’m done and just want it over with it.
@NR while I think what you say can be completely true, it’s not always true. A friend of mine got extremely depressed after high school when his friend killed himself and then he went off to university in a new city with no friends. He said the first semester was brutal. He was just depressed as fuck all of the time. He never told me that he wanted to kill himself, but I would be shocked if he never thought about it (he’s been diagnosed as bi-polar for years).
He used to smoke weed back in junior high/early high school, but he had quit for a while and didn’t even really drink anymore (at least not to get drunk like most kids, he’d still have a beer or two). But he started smoking again between first and second semester of his first year, and he said it was like when no one else was there for him, weed was. It would help him take his mind off things, and it allowed him to just relax, and he found himself meeting new people. Now he’s in second year and shares a house with some great friends he met.
I know it sounds like that was probably extremely unhealthy for him and not good, but you don’t know him. I do, and I see him, and he’s truly better now. No doubt he still has demons and insane amounts of loss inside him, but that’s always going to be there when you lose one of your best friends. Sure, he smokes weed a lot, but he’s not one of those guys who just sits down and plays xbox and eats chips when he’s high. He spends a ton of time outdoors, hiking and fishing and whatnot. He’s doing well in school too and loves what he’s doing.
It may not be good for everyone (in fact, it’s probably bad more often than not), but for some people it’s right. I wouldn’t advise anyone to start smoking weed to solve their depression issues, but it just felt wrong for me to not say anything when one of my best friends has been saved by it.
@perfectgirl don’t give up, please. There’s always a solution, a way to pick up the pieces of your life and create a beautiful new one for yourself. It’s just not worth it to take your own life.
The fact that you are looking for a solution means that you can’t have given up hope entirely. There is always an answer out there, even if you can’t immediately see it.
If you don’t mind me asking, why do you feel like this?
It just seems like nothing can be done. No matter what I do I always fall back to this place. I’m an extremely unhappy person and its I’m losing the fight against struggling against this any longer.
I don’t mind you asking at all but I don’t know how to respond either. Its not just one big thing that I think caused it but many things thats lead me to this. And feeling like this.
And not here, I really do understand. I have known people that have been positively affected by weed, but never anyone that suffers from depression. I guess any discussion like this is purely anecdotal, and I have nothing against the use of marijuana, I just really disagree with the idea of taking it up as a way of dealing with something.
I know, I really do agree with you for the most part. As I said, I’d never actually suggest it to someone to deal with problems. I’m just saying that I do know someone very close to me who was helped profoundly by it.
@Heartless25
who wants to know? (weed causes paranoia)
@NR
I totally agree with you on all points. I’ve been at it for two years+ and I realized after my first year that it awakened the depression buried deep inside. I distinctly remember bouts of sadness before I picked up smoking, but they only occurred once every 4-5 months. The door was only slightly ajar then but smoking marijuana kicked it right open. So yes, I’m much worse off depression wise. However..
@not here
The way you describe your friend? that’s pretty much where I am. I’ve got this closet of demons and its wide open. Smoking forces me to confront these demons and ask why instead of simply closing it again for a little while. It takes away my neurotic fears and allows me to analyze my demons away. I prefer being in this constantly depressed state because I feel I’m making some kind of progress towards inner peace. We all have demons but they don’t have to be.
@not here
I’ve tried everything. If I had another option I would take it, but I don’t. I can’t live like this anymore and hope one day its going to change.
@JoneHenry
Thats a sick way to die and sick that you would provide me a manual to my death. Its a little fucked up. But to end all this talk I was thinking car crash. Quick and simple.
“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.â€
— John Green, Looking for Alaska
I’ve been in your shoes. I know it sounds dumb, I know it sounds repetitive, but belive me, it really does get better. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not next week, hell, maybe not even this year, but hang in there. Because if I’ve learned one thing from life is that it’s worth living.
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weed. if that isn’t your bag, default on your talents. Do something that you know you’re good at to give yourself a small boost to your self esteem. You’re drowning and that jolt will get your head above water temporarily. It’s just a short term fix though. I was depressed as fuck when I first logged on but after replying to a few posts and giving some advice, I feel calm and productive. Take your mind off your own shit and focus on someone elses. cheap tricks but it’ll get you to the next day. Maybe that next day will bring a lottery win, or a bad case of herpes
hey tphg you smoke weed?
I really, really, really cannot stress how much I believe you should avoid weed if you are feeling depressed. Ignoring the fact that medical research shows that for those of us with depression it will only make it worse, losing yourself in drugs, or alcohol, will not do a thing to deal with your problems, they will only add to them.
And that’s not coming from someone who has never experienced the other side, I’ve had my fair share of problems with stuff a lot harder, and I can tell you now no good comes from escaping from things that way.
Exactly what you said, they are tricks not solutions. I wanted to actually feel better and not just for the moment. Now I’m done and just want it over with it.
@NR while I think what you say can be completely true, it’s not always true. A friend of mine got extremely depressed after high school when his friend killed himself and then he went off to university in a new city with no friends. He said the first semester was brutal. He was just depressed as fuck all of the time. He never told me that he wanted to kill himself, but I would be shocked if he never thought about it (he’s been diagnosed as bi-polar for years).
He used to smoke weed back in junior high/early high school, but he had quit for a while and didn’t even really drink anymore (at least not to get drunk like most kids, he’d still have a beer or two). But he started smoking again between first and second semester of his first year, and he said it was like when no one else was there for him, weed was. It would help him take his mind off things, and it allowed him to just relax, and he found himself meeting new people. Now he’s in second year and shares a house with some great friends he met.
I know it sounds like that was probably extremely unhealthy for him and not good, but you don’t know him. I do, and I see him, and he’s truly better now. No doubt he still has demons and insane amounts of loss inside him, but that’s always going to be there when you lose one of your best friends. Sure, he smokes weed a lot, but he’s not one of those guys who just sits down and plays xbox and eats chips when he’s high. He spends a ton of time outdoors, hiking and fishing and whatnot. He’s doing well in school too and loves what he’s doing.
It may not be good for everyone (in fact, it’s probably bad more often than not), but for some people it’s right. I wouldn’t advise anyone to start smoking weed to solve their depression issues, but it just felt wrong for me to not say anything when one of my best friends has been saved by it.
@perfectgirl don’t give up, please. There’s always a solution, a way to pick up the pieces of your life and create a beautiful new one for yourself. It’s just not worth it to take your own life.
The fact that you are looking for a solution means that you can’t have given up hope entirely. There is always an answer out there, even if you can’t immediately see it.
If you don’t mind me asking, why do you feel like this?
If you want to talk to someone, feel free to email me at NicolangeloR@hotmail.co.uk
It just seems like nothing can be done. No matter what I do I always fall back to this place. I’m an extremely unhappy person and its I’m losing the fight against struggling against this any longer.
I don’t mind you asking at all but I don’t know how to respond either. Its not just one big thing that I think caused it but many things thats lead me to this. And feeling like this.
I might take you up on that, mines schwartzmolly2@gmail.com
And not here, I really do understand. I have known people that have been positively affected by weed, but never anyone that suffers from depression. I guess any discussion like this is purely anecdotal, and I have nothing against the use of marijuana, I just really disagree with the idea of taking it up as a way of dealing with something.
I know, I really do agree with you for the most part. As I said, I’d never actually suggest it to someone to deal with problems. I’m just saying that I do know someone very close to me who was helped profoundly by it.
@Heartless25
who wants to know? (weed causes paranoia)
@NR
I totally agree with you on all points. I’ve been at it for two years+ and I realized after my first year that it awakened the depression buried deep inside. I distinctly remember bouts of sadness before I picked up smoking, but they only occurred once every 4-5 months. The door was only slightly ajar then but smoking marijuana kicked it right open. So yes, I’m much worse off depression wise. However..
@not here
The way you describe your friend? that’s pretty much where I am. I’ve got this closet of demons and its wide open. Smoking forces me to confront these demons and ask why instead of simply closing it again for a little while. It takes away my neurotic fears and allows me to analyze my demons away. I prefer being in this constantly depressed state because I feel I’m making some kind of progress towards inner peace. We all have demons but they don’t have to be.
l’m a hardcore stoner and i have yet to meet anybody on here who does
@not here
I’ve tried everything. If I had another option I would take it, but I don’t. I can’t live like this anymore and hope one day its going to change.
@JoneHenry
Thats a sick way to die and sick that you would provide me a manual to my death. Its a little fucked up. But to end all this talk I was thinking car crash. Quick and simple.
I’ve emailed you. I hope I can help you in some way.
You stick one more week, one more day…
You just stick it..
“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.â€
— John Green, Looking for Alaska
I’ve been in your shoes. I know it sounds dumb, I know it sounds repetitive, but belive me, it really does get better. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not next week, hell, maybe not even this year, but hang in there. Because if I’ve learned one thing from life is that it’s worth living.