So. I LOVE thinking about killing myself. It’s like this morbid obsession I have. i love thinking about how I would do it, how my body would look all mutilated and lifeless, and how my friends would find me and cry. Jesus. Anyone else have a similar story? Or am i just messed up???
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I think everyone who has ideated about suicide has gotten good feelings about it at one point or another. Your ideations might be a little more extreme though. To feel good about others feeling bad for you. . . nothing too weird about that just means you want to be acknowledged, still it’s definitely something to try to work through with your therapist.
I totally get you. I am happy i am not the only one who likes to think about death.
I also like to imagine different scenes of my funeral. It s a little messed up but you are not the only one 🙂
I saw some pictures of people that kind of used the method that I am going to use and it kind of hit me. I only think about how people will feel after I’m found. I think about how they knew how I am and didn’t really do too much to try and help me. I have built up a lot of walls over all these years so I’m not too surprised that no one is really doing or asking me how I am.
I get it, understand, ideate also.
I don’t get any good feeling thinking of loved ones seeing me dead though.