I should be happy.

  November 14th, 2011 by str0121

I’ve had a pretty easy life, but in my head everything is wrong. Day after day the demons in my head just seem to eat at me. Small things that should just make me go “eh,” make me wish I wasn’t here. I feel so helpless all the time. I’m tired of life, Im about to be 24 and all I can think of is that I have a whole life ahead of me, and it just makes me feel worse. I wish I could just disappear.

There are two reasons why i’m still here.

1. I’m scared of hurting myself.

2. I don’t want to hurt my family.

I can’t bear the thought of having one of my family members finding my lifeless body. I can’t imagine what my little sister would feel knowing I took my own life.

I feel trapped on this earth. I’m tired of being here, but I have no way out. I don’t know how to live like this.

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