My life is fucked up, I’m fucked up, and it never stops. Every fucking time i get happy, it ends in tears and death-wishes. I tried not to think like that, to be less negative. But it’s really hard to be positive when life is treating you like crap. I recently got my heart broken, again, and all I do is cry, drink, do stupid things and plan my suicide. I just can’t take all this shit piling up all the time. It ruins every day for me. Things I used to love to to, are now pointless. Nothing gives me real joy, I’m just empty and unhappy. And it happens every single time things are good. It’s so over, it’s enough. I can’t take it anymore, I just want to die. Get away from it all, get away from my life and my feelings. I wish I could live a perfectly normal, happy life with no stupid thoughts like this… I’m scared of myself, because I’m very much able to kill myself when things are this way… Please just take the pain away. God..
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This could be me, feeling very low today.
I guess what I take issue w. is all these Holy Rollers who leave leaflets in my car, when I feel nothing but blinding emptiness in life. Too much. She died from disappointment.
Prognosis=poor
Baby steps, BeaGhost, I am afraid of the dentist.