Ill never live a normal life. Not with my past. I just want a time machine. I knwo I should just look forward and learn from my past… but its not as simple as people make it seem when they say it. Im just scared of whats gunna happen after wards. After I end it all. will I be forever in blackness or will i really go to a heaven ? I know nieave… but it gives u peace knowing that something is better. Even if there ws though God would probably wouldn’t let me in, cause suicide is a sin and all. When i tell people I want to kill myself they get mad and say that im selfish for only thinking about myself. 🙁 it really hurts. Im already in enough pain. Im a usless human being anyways. They should just put me down cause ill have no impact on this world….Not if im always gunna feel this way. I fined it hard to do anything theses days. I use ot have big dreams, sometimes i still imagine them happening but I know deep down that they wont. Ugh im such a weak coward! 🙁
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Hello friend. I feel exactly like you feel. I made a huge mistake, and now I feel really bad because of what I did. I am working with God to help me find the words to ask for forgiveness. It is not easy, but I must.
Mistay how old are you, you speak of the idea of a time machine, I lost hope in that a few years back as technology can’t surpass the cycle of sciences
If you go into the blackness look for a man named Rogue Shadow he will help you. Rogue Shadow is my alter ego, he protects me he may do for you too
Hi if anyone finds this post again, this was made by my sis, i love and miss her she took her life last sunday and i want everyone to know that death is a long term solution to a short term problem i tried to keep her alive but i failed she was in a lot of pain but she was getting better, just know that no matter how sad u feel or how hopeless your death wont be unoticed it will be noticed and people will miss you like i miss her… she loved me and i loved her and i wish i could have her back…
I’m so sorry to hear that MrRadiohead; at least she’s no longer suffering.
MrRadiohead I’m truly sorry. I hope that you are eventually able to come to terms with your loss. It’s the worst feeling in the world and is the main reason why so many people on this site find a way to keep going. It’s an uphill battle. It is clear from her post she was really suffering. There will come a time in the future when you think about whether something could have been done. I don’t think that there was any more that you could have done to help her.