At first I would like to start, I have a very off background that I would not like to get into at the moment, I wanna get straight to the point.
I’m scared right now.. and I hate myself for it.
I am trying to think I am pretty, I am, I started to wear short sleaves again and not hide under my bracelets. I have scares, deep scares, and the word “perfect” scared on my arm, all the way up to my elbow. I don’t worry about my other scares because they are in certain other spots but I want to not be scared. I wanna be able to go out and walk the streets or even go to work or school with out being lectured or questioned about my arms. I even like a guy from work…. but I am so scared because I don’t know what to do…. He says things about suicide, because, he is one of those people who don’t fully understand it. We talk about so I know about his past and he has always felt like it, but he is basically a solider of life. He never tried to harm himself, ever, no scars, no drugs, nothing like that. His skin is so clean compared to mine. And I  hate it, it scares me, I’m so scared now, just when I start to feel a little better…. he said some things last night so now I’m scared all over again. I cried myself to sleep because I cant help that I scared so bad.. and that they are so noticeable… I just don’t know.. and now I’m scared to even ask him out… and i hate myself for being so scared… and feeling so ashamed… I just wish I knew what to do with myself..
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Sounds like you would like the scars removed and to live life again.
Research plastic surgeons and see if the scars can be taken care of, it would give you a new lease on life.
The surgery may be cheaper than you might imagine, and possibly a dr. may do it for cost in your case.
Dr. love to “really” make a difference in someones life, and if they are approached in the right way, there is a possiblity that the dr. donates his skills. A Win/Win.
I’m desperately afraid of getting surgery, more than anything I’m afraid to go under. It is a huge fear of mine. So I’m stuck like this, all cause I get so scared :[
Scars don’t mean anything, they just show what you’ve been through, which was hell. So you’ve been through hell, that’s nothing to be ashamed of. We all deal with our own personal hells in different ways. You dealt with yours one way, and I’m guessing you learned from it and won’t handle it that way again. So you learned a lesson, and that’s certainly not a wrong thing to do. You don’t need to feel bad about what other people think, they haven’t been through what you have and it doesn’t matter if they understand.
I wouldn’t think twice about dating someone with scars like yours, it just wouldn’t worry me at all. He may well feel the same way c
There’s a song with the lyric, “This is brutally beautiful.” You are beautiful, and your scars are beautiful because they are part of you. Beauty doesn’t necessarily mean flawless skin. It is more of a state of mind, a way of thinking about yourself that gives you confidence.