So I’m not even sure where to start. People are always telling me how their life sucks or they hate their family. When I was 14 15 years old, my gradfrather passed away Ans that’s when I woke up and realized how my life is going to be. I feel like his death is my fault because if I would have done better in school my grandmother wouldn’t have had to take me to night school and she would have been there to call for an ambulance. Well a year later I meet my wife. This girl made everyday worth getting out of bed for. She to this day can still help me with almost any issue. Long story short, my life is falling apart. I either have to give up everything I love or I have it taken from me. I used to be a photographer, I usedto Yvette a project drift car, I used to Yvette a family that cared bout me. My entire familey doesn’t want anything to do with me and I can’t figure out why. The which see it, I don’t need them. I still have my wife and kids for the moment. Know my wife and I are having issues. If I lose. Her, I will Yvette nothing at all. I’m tired of being alone and I’m tired of not have anything. Everyone tells me things will get better. WHEN? I help people everyday. I try to avoid. Fighting with anyone I feel like I’m a good person. I also don’t believe. In God but I still pray for death everyday. I’m tired…simple as that.
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You didnt mention anything about any help, have to sought out a therapist ? Life can be overwhelming at times.
I resinged a job once, and 8 months later my ex boss emailed that my co worker had died of busted blood vessel in the brain. I blamed myself for leaving him and making his job more difficult.
What I’m saying is we can take on guilt that isn’t really ours. My co worker would have died anyway.
You said something about not having anything, well there is always someone worse off than me in this world. I have all my limbs, eye sight, and I can hear. I have the internet go figure, cable TV food in the kitchen etc.
Now if its a case of the “Jones’s”, that will have to be an inside job to fix. As long as I go around mad at the world because of what they have and I don’t have contentment will elude me.