I have been in a really bad place for the last couple weeks and it was only getting worse. I have always had suicide in the back of my mind, but lately it has been coming to the front and yesterday I went and bought some stuff that I was going to use to do it. I have never gone that far before, and the dark empty feeling in my stomach was becoming unbearable. I didn’t want to ask for help, I didn’t want anyone to know. I thought my problems were insurmountable and I was better off dead.
So today I just called someone and talked about the problems I was having and how all this stuff had been weighing me down. It was as if a huge weight had been lifted from me. The problems are still there, but I knew there was someone out there that understood and that made all the difference. For the last week I have been unable to function and had I not made that call I could have been following through with my plan to end it. Now I feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but I know I am going to have to fight to reach it. The difference is I want to reach it now.
Just call someone.