Keep Strong?… No

November 3rd, 2011by princessgeorgie3593

i am so sick off people telling me to keep strong and stay brave maybe i dont want to maybe i’ve had enough off being strong and fighting all the time for hings to get better for….. it all to go wrong again…

a year a go i tried to kill myself with a massive overdose and if i was found like 20 mins later i wouldnt be writteing this i still hve the scars where i had to be shocked because my heart had stopped why couldnt they just leave it that way… 🙁 i had to face my family and friends yeah but now.. my family dont speak to me i have a flat mate who has her own life…. why have i not tryed again sooner? i wanted to be able to say i tried to make it better…

i got a job

my flat

a relationship that was a joke filled with mental abuse contolling and bullying

i just… havent got the strength anymore… i’ve put on a brave face.. but now.. i live so close to the sea near high cliffs and its winter.. i know people say drowning is the most painful way to go but its a way.. im not likely to be found and i wont be able to fight it .. im sorry for the people i’ll hurt yeah but not sorry enough to care enough to want to stay…

 

Processing your request, Please wait....